Sucide by barbeque charcoal

[FireFox]

I have decied i have a life not worth living and cant ever see my life changing.
I have ruined my life. I dont feel young anymore
I have nothing to live for
- No Partner
- no job
- An embrassment to my family. My family dont pressure me to work but i feel like i have let them down.

They will be devasted but what use i am really. Everyone is better off without me .

People in my life say these good things about me but i think it is all bullshit
They say i am clever. It is not true becauase if i was i wouldnt be an unemployes loser
Family say i am pretty. If i was i would have a boyfriend and not be a virgin.
I dont want to see the next 10 years of my life. Not knowing what i want to do with my life is biggest reason why i want to kill myself

I dont want to see what i will become.
Living in this world scares me so much and realise i cant do it anymore.
I want to escape the world .
I dont belong here . I am too weak , too stupid, unattractive (this is how i see myself)

How does barbeque charcaol work and how long does it take to die
Can you do it without a tent.

 

[faust]

I have decied i have a life not worth living and cant ever see my life changing.
I have ruined my life. I dont feel young anymore
I have nothing to live for
- No Partner
- no job
- An embrassment to my family. My family dont pressure me to work but i feel like i have let them down.

They will be devasted but what use i am really. Everyone is better off without me .

People in my life say these good things about me but i think it is all bullshit
They say i am clever. It is not true becauase if i was i wouldnt be an unemployes loser
Family say i am pretty. If i was i would have a boyfriend and not be a virgin.
I dont want to see the next 10 years of my life. Not knowing what i want to do with my life is biggest reason why i want to kill myself

I dont want to see what i will become.
Living in this world scares me so much and realise i cant do it anymore.
I want to escape the world .
I dont belong here . I am too weak , too stupid, unattractive (this is how i see myself)

How does barbeque charcaol work and how long does it take to die
Can you do it without a tent.

It is hard to read. And one phrase touched me mostly: " I dont feel young anymore". I remember myself feeling this way even when I was 16. Even wrote this in diary... Or at least implied I feel this way, I don't remember the contents... Wish you all the best, a missing soul, hope you will find your peace no matter what is your final decision.

 

[person123]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-megathread.2053

 

[Garbage Person]

Any small enclosed place will do. A vehicle, laundry room or closet, shipping container, you name it. Technically, it could work in a large space if you had something to continually pump Carbon Monoxide into an enclosed space in large amounts. There's a really lengthy discussion in the generals if you want to get technical. The tl;dr is CO is very lethal. Light your charcoals in a starter, grill, or using ignition fluids (not recommended due to other toxins). Let them burn until they're are mostly gray/ashy, and then put them in a bucket/container that won't burn and put it in the enclosed space with yourself. This can be very harmful if you back out though, damage could be serious and leave you worse off. The amount of charcoal you use depends on the space. Don't do any of this though. I'm not condoning that sort of action and behavior.

I don't want to seem heartless, I was mostly focused on your question. I relate to everything you're saying here to some degree. I'm not a virgin, but I feel like one again though I don't focus on or think about sex much anymore and that makes me feel old. It's just not going to bring me lasting happiness or new experiences. I just want a comrade, so to speak. I catch the same shit, being told I'm attractive and don't see myself as such. I wish I had more, just know you're not alone. I'm a firm believer that happiness has to come from inside an individual and their own actions, rather than being dependent on outside sources (companies, people, money, drugs, material goods, social status, etc.) In order for it to be genuine. I'll let you know if I reach that state.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry for what you are going through. It must be very hard. I kinda feel the same way as you do. No matter what people tell me, I know I am a failure and can't really see myself fixing the mess of a life I have. Still gonna try though. I really wish you try one more time to find happiness and as Garbage Person said realise that you can be happy even if you don't have a partner or a job. These things come with time.

 

[Josiah_is_dreaming]

Hey. Ya know, the thing about pain is, it's temporary. It may last a minute, and hour, or a day, or even a year. But no matter what it cannot last forever. Please know you're stronger than to leave because of a feeling! I know how unhappy you must be with yourself, I feel the same way! But you don't have to be alone! I'm here you can talk to me! Anyone can and I'll do my best to help out! Just...

give yourself more time dear, please...