Story Stupidity is Happiness, and I'd rather die than be stupid.

[UnsureWhatToDo]

I already started to poste some of this in another thread, bit decided to add to it and make it's own post.

Here is what I wrote in that thread: Ever since elementary school, I was introverted. Being friends with people was too much effort, I decided. So I went on to think about the world and society, from an outside POV. Wanted to look at the world objectively. Why people think this and that, I was always thinking deeply about the world, and philosophy, and scientific thinking. I was socially anxious, and thought more about the world than my immediate needs. But this past summer, I got into to this amazing flow of, oh, I don't even know how to describe it. But my head hurt like hell for weeks, and it was amazing. And noticed how everyone was so irrational, and how the only way to not appear like an asshole to them was to just follow the crowd. I've become so stupid. It didn't help that I am a bit autistic and got really obsessed with one thing a lot. I didn't have that many more years before I had to get a job, and I spent all those on deep thinking instead of keeping a job, and making sure I don't appear like an asshole so nobody would fire me or anything. I ignored all my passions all my thoughts, for fear of appearing like a weirdo. Now I can be happy by doing stupid stuff, because of this stupid pushing away thinking. Now all I feel like doing is to complain, and attention seek, instead of thinking. I wish I could just drop dead now, as I see how there's no way back to my old mindset, now that I've let society drag me down to their level, and how my view of the world has changed to match that of all these idiots. Instead of disagreeing with them, I joined them. No more depression, but at what cost?

Now, to add in a little bit more. I tried to get back to where I was. But I feel like the more I try to get back to where I was, someone else's opinion always drags me back down. I became too hesitant on what I wanted to get back, so instead of thinking for myself, I followed social norms instead of thinking. I started to become extroverted, which means all of my deep pondering will vanish away. Getting back to that flow of deep thinking is becoming hopeless, and my scientific mindset and view of the world has been fading away, with less and less hope that I can get it back. And my ability to keep my thinking on what to do, instead of looking back. Time marches onward, and my memory of these is fading fast. I want to fade fast, too.

 

[theguineapigking]

I can understand what you mean.

The fact is that most people seem to be stupid. It's society and social media. It's a joke. So many people lack the most important form of common sense. They seem normal then BAM, they say something like " I'm a trump lover FYI " (USA president). Most of the people on this website seem to be much more aware and awoken. But in the real world, society is f'd up.

I get really really mad at stupidity. I'm not sure what type of stupidity annoys you. But I cannot tolerate idiocy. It may be a "brain defect" or something. But I just don't have the patience. I've learned to just ignore society as much as humanly possible. Politics annoy the hell out of me. If I see or hear anything about politics,I get mad and ignore it. I swear ignorance and politics are the most annoying things ever! There's really no way to escape it, sadly. But you don't have to become it! Just ignore them and try to stay sharp. Be aware and don't try too hard. Don't feel obligated or pressured to "blend in" with society.



I wish you peace. I'm here if you want to talk at all. NO POLITICS. ;)

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Me too. Prefer to be dead than being a stupid guy all my life.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

The fact is that most people seem to be stupid. It's society and social media.

People don´t think for themselves they have been indoctrinated/programmed by society to believe in a certain way and then they will protect those beliefs without ever knowing they don´t have a single independent thought of their own e.g. age of consent, the view on illegal drugs, that people aren´t allowed to carry weapons e.g. knives, pepper sprays stun guns etc. even though humans has done that for hundred of thousands of years but people are fine with this because they feel so secure and "the police should be the only one to be armed" so they can protect them even though when seconds count police are minutes away.

My point is simply people don´t think for themselves at all that is why I like philosophers because they think outside the box and it seems like OP is one too or at least used to philosophize about a lot of things like I have done myself since age 16 but tbh ignorance is bliss the less you know the happier you´ll be I know too much of this world which is yet another reason to ctb taking something as simple as 'love' and break it down to the fact it´s just a chemical reaction happening in the brain ruins the mysterious magical feeling that love gives, ignorance is truly bliss.

 

[theguineapigking]

People don´t think for themselves they have been indoctrinated/programmed by society to believe in a certain way and then they will protect those beliefs without ever knowing they don´t have a single independent thought of their own e.g. age of consent, the view on illegal drugs, that people aren´t allowed to carry weapons e.g. knives, pepper sprays stun guns etc. even though humans has done that for hundred of thousands of years but people are fine with this because they feel so secure and "the police should be the only one to be armed" so they can protect them even though when seconds count police are minutes away.

My point is simply people don´t think for themselves at all that is why I like philosophers because they think outside the box and it seems like OP is one too or at least used to philosophize about a lot of things like I have done myself since age 16 but tbh ignorance is bliss the less you know the happier you´ll be I know too much of this world which is yet another reason to ctb taking something as simple as 'love' and break it down to the fact it´s just a chemical reaction happening in the brain ruins the mysterious magical feeling that love gives, ignorance is truly bliss.

I totally get what you mean.
Is emotion just chemical reactions? I don't know because there is no way to know. I don't know about you, but I know that anything is possible. Maybe there's an afterlife, maybe not. Perhaps emotion in this life is just the brain and body. But perhaps sometimes the spirit or consciousness takes over with deeper emotions. But the human body definitely causes the majority of emotions.


You say you are a deep thinker. I ask you this: do you ever fear solipsism? Because human awareness is so low, there is no way to rove to yourself, beyond all doubt whatsoever, that anything is truly "real" , or that other beings are truly conscious. I have major anxiety of this. But I guess I can only assume that I'm not in a simulation of some sort and do my best to function.


I know this is technical. But I think very very deeply. I'm curious about your thoughts!

Thanks for your interesting and LOGICAL answer. So many people can't see what you, the op, and I see so clearly( with flaws in society).

 

[Death.]

To be honest I'd much rather be dumb and blissfully unaware if it brought happiness in my life.

Unfortunately once you peak into the abyss you cannot look back.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I totally get what you mean.
Is emotion just chemical reactions? I don't know because there is no way to know. I don't know about you, but I know that anything is possible. Maybe there's an afterlife, maybe not. Perhaps emotion in this life is just the brain and body. But perhaps sometimes the spirit or consciousness takes over with deeper emotions. But the human body definitely causes the majority of emotions.


You say you are a deep thinker. I ask you this: do you ever fear solipsism? Because human awareness is so low, there is no way to rove to yourself, beyond all doubt whatsoever, that anything is truly "real" , or that other beings are truly conscious. I have major anxiety of this. But I guess I can only assume that I'm not in a simulation of some sort and do my best to function.


I know this is technical. But I think very very deeply. I'm curious about your thoughts!

Thanks for your interesting and LOGICAL answer. So many people can't see what you, the op, and I see so clearly( with flaws in society).

I have begun to look more and more into simulation theory and solipsism that the only thing I can be certain of is that my brain is real the body is literally just a biomechanical being that is controlled by electrical impulses from the brain at least that is one theory I have since we all know that our body and brain reacts on electrical impulses so it would make sense we are biomechanical beings but I also look into other simulation theories as well but can´t fully convince myself about them 100% I mostly lean towards existential nihilism; that we are so insignificant that the earth itself it just a watery speck of dust like a grain of sand in a whole desert but tbh I am a narcisist at least to some degree so that is why the simulation theory interest me so much because I often feel the universe hates me because of all my problems.

Also when I am out for a walk sometimes I try and convince myself that I am in a simulation and like a video game e.g GTA 5 the world map isn´t there all the time it´s being created as I move in that direction like in Rick and Morty where they get to the edge because the simulation froze I mean it´s just something that is neat to think about like if I am out walking looking around it´s like I am in this dome that is being simulated as I walk, and as I have heard in other simulation theory videos how can we know that when a friend comes to visit us they actually drive from A to B that is just what we expect but in a simulation they wouldn´t need to we just hear them knock on our door and see their car in the parking lot but we actually didn´t see them go for the drive there this is from a video I just watched and makes sense in terms of the simulation theory because it would take too much power to create a whole world so like in open world video games it saves power by creating the world around you as you move in any direction and you see cars and pedestrians appear like they have been heading to a destination all along.

I don´t know if I am just rambling it´s 7:19am right now and I haven´t been able to sleep the last 3 night only in the day time which messes up my inner clock which is especially bad because I have aspergers so I need routine. But anyways I think simulation theories are very interesting and I desperately hope that when I kill myself I will wake up as a child again and all of this was just a bad dream but I most likely will just seize to exist.

 

[theguineapigking]

I have begun to look more and more into simulation theory and solipsism that the only thing I can be certain of is that my brain is real the body is literally just a biomechanical being that is controlled by electrical impulses from the brain at least that is one theory I have since we all know that our body and brain reacts on electrical impulses so it would make sense we are biomechanical beings but I also look into other simulation theories as well but can´t fully convince myself about them 100% I mostly lean towards existential nihilism; that we are so insignificant that the earth itself it just a watery speck of dust like a grain of sand in a whole desert but tbh I am a narcisist at least to some degree so that is why the simulation theory interest me so much because I often feel the universe hates me because of all my problems.

Also when I am out for a walk sometimes I try and convince myself that I am in a simulation and like a video game e.g GTA 5 the world map isn´t there all the time it´s being created as I move in that direction like in Rick and Morty where they get to the edge because the simulation froze I mean it´s just something that is neat to think about like if I am out walking looking around it´s like I am in this dome that is being simulated as I walk, and as I have heard in other simulation theory videos how can we know that when a friend comes to visit us they actually drive from A to B that is just what we expect but in a simulation they wouldn´t need to we just hear them knock on our door and see their car in the parking lot but we actually didn´t see them go for the drive there this is from a video I just watched and makes sense in terms of the simulation theory because it would take too much power to create a whole world so like in open world video games it saves power by creating the world around you as you move in any direction and you see cars and pedestrians appear like they have been heading to a destination all along.

I don´t know if I am just rambling it´s 7:19am right now and I haven´t been able to sleep the last 3 night only in the day time which messes up my inner clock which is especially bad because I have aspergers so I need routine. But anyways I think simulation theories are very interesting and I desperately hope that when I kill myself I will wake up as a child again and all of this was just a bad dream but I most likely will just seize to exist.

Hey. Your thought process is very similar to mine. Have you heard of the double slit experiment? I'm not genius or anything, but the gist is that a photon, which is the smallest quantum electromagnetic energy that can exist at a specific frequency/wavelength( frequency and wavelength are 2 sides of the same coin). For ex. Blue light and red light each have their own frequency/ wavelength.... Well, a "blue" photon is both a wave and particle... Here's the thing, if a photon is observed during an experiment, it behaves like a particle. If it isn't observed, it acts as both a wave and particle( I think). Regardless of technical crap, observing effects electromagnetic energy. I don't fully understand it because most ignorant people are too dumb to actually explain how it works in plain English. Most people answer to reddit eli5 with equations and other bullcrap. But that just goes to show that maybe the universe is shaped, at least to some extent, from being observed. Also remember that just because our laws of physics are a certain way doesn't mean that the "real" world follows the same logic and laws of physics(assuming this is a simulation). Then the question becomes, what is real? Just because observing photons effects them doesn't mean this is a simulation. But what you said reminds me of the whole observance of photons thing.


My biggest fear is that (from my perspective) I'm in a simulation or in some kind of literal hell where I'm being tricked(I think Descartes believed in this possibility.) that this is real only to have me die and find out I have to be reborn for ever and ever. I'm losing my mind thinking about it.

Because human awareness is so low, there is no way to know if anyone else is truly conscious. Just like if there was a robot that talked like a human and looked just like one, you wouldn't be able to tell it apart, at least until you break it open( like in marvel's agents of shield). My point is, if you potentially can't tell a very well designed robot from a person( Assuming they speak normally and look normally from the outside), what's to say that other people aren't real either? Especially if this is a simulation. The brain in a vat theory is terrifying.


I truly hope to the ends of existence that when I die, that I either cease to exist,or find out 100% positively that other beings are real or not. But what if I'm fed false signals? If your body can send signals to your brain telling it things you experience, couldn't a super computer do the same thing? It doesn't matter that we don't have the tech in this world. If this is a simulation,the outside world is way more advanced, and we just wouldn't know. So what if I'm fed signals telling me that this other consciousness i meet is real or that one is real, but the signals are false. So what if it turns out that even though I feel 100% positive that I'm not actually alone, I'm still in the simulation when I die and those signals are lies that trick my brain into being 100% positive. So I never ever know if I'm really alone or not in the universe, even in the afterlife? It is ABSOLUTELY terrifying me and I'm in hell.


Thanks for your intelligent responses. I certainly rambled a lot more than you.( you didn't really ramble,I did)I'm sorry about that. If you need clarification,feel free to ask.


Hopefully you get some sleep man.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Hey. Your thought process is very similar to mine. Have you heard of the double slit experiment? I'm not genius or anything, but the gist is that a photon, which is the smallest quantum electromagnetic energy that can exist at a specific frequency/wavelength( frequency and wavelength are 2 sides of the same coin). For ex. Blue light and red light each have their own frequency/ wavelength.... Well, a "blue" photon is both a wave and particle... Here's the thing, if a photon is observed during an experiment, it behaves like a particle. If it isn't observed, it acts as both a wave and particle( I think). Regardless of technical crap, observing effects electromagnetic energy. I don't fully understand it because most ignorant people are too dumb to actually explain how it works in plain English. Most people answer to reddit eli5 with equations and other bullcrap. But that just goes to show that maybe the universe is shaped, at least to some extent, from being observed. Also remember that just because our laws of physics are a certain way doesn't mean that the "real" world follows the same logic and laws of physics(assuming this is a simulation). Then the question becomes, what is real? Just because observing photons effects them doesn't mean this is a simulation. But what you said reminds me of the whole observance of photons thing.

Yeah I have heard about it they mention it in several videos about simulation theory of conciousness and it´s pretty neat that there is actual proof unlike religion which is imo a crock of shit and the only people who believes in religion were indoctrinated from birth to do so, if that same person had been born in an atheist familie he/she wouldn´t be religious and then there are people like me and probably you too where it didn´t matter which family we were born into we form our own opinions like philosophers who question everything instead of just going along with everything.

Because human awareness is so low, there is no way to know if anyone else is truly conscious. Just like if there was a robot that talked like a human and looked just like one, you wouldn't be able to tell it apart, at least until you break it open( marvel's like in agents of shield). My point is, if you potentially can't tell a very well designed robot from a person( Assuming they speak normally and look normally from the outside), what's to say that other people aren't real either? Especially if this is a simulation. The brain in a vat theory is terrifying.

Nick Bostrom´s theory which was pretty much the original simulation theory actually talks about that there might only be 1 million people in the world the rest are simulations.
And I also like the example from Kurzgesagts video where they talk about that we only percieve things when we start to examine them like if we cut up a chair then obviously it would have mass but it didn´t need to have it before we look at it the same with bacteria, electrons, photons etc. we can´t see it so why would it be simulated until it was needed? I also like how they use Sims as an example Vsauce did that too with the wall hypothesis like a Sims character can´t walk through a wall even though there actually isn´t any wall it´s just code the same could apply for us, when we toughts a wall it feels solid and we can´t pass through it but maybe it´s code preventing us from doing it.

I truly hope to the ends of existence that when I die, that I either cease to exist,or find out 100% positively that other beings are real or not. But what if I'm fed false signals? If your body can send signals to your brain telling it things you experience, couldn't a super computer do the same thing? It doesn't matter that we don't have the tech in this world. If this is a simulation,the outside world is way more advanced, and we just wouldn't know. So what if I'm fed signals telling me that this other consciousness i meet is real or that one is real, but the signals are false. So what if it turns out that even though I feel 100% positive that I'm not actually alone, I'm still in the simulation when I die and those signals are lies that trick my brain into being 100% positive. So I never ever know if I'm really alone or not. It is ABSOLUTELY terrifying me and I'm in hell.

I didn´t quite understood this but then again it´s 9:37am and I still haven´t been able to sleep so I am concentrating really hard trying to respond since I feel like a zombie right now and was actually supposed to ctb today and I figured since I hadn´t been able to fall asleep at night for the last few nights I might as well take an all nighter but now I just feel tired and confused I even consider to start to day drink today.

 

[theguineapigking]

Yeah I have heard about it they mention it in several videos about simulation theory of conciousness and it´s pretty neat that there is actual proof unlike religion which is imo a crock of shit and the only people who believes in religion were indoctrinated from birth to do so, if that same person had been born in an atheist familie he/she wouldn´t be religious and then there are people like me and probably you too where it didn´t matter which family we were born into we form our own opinions like philosophers who question everything instead of just going along with everything.


Nick Bostrom´s theory which was pretty much the original simulation theory actually talks about that there might only be 1 million people in the world the rest are simulations.
And I also like the example from Kurzgesagts video where they talk about that we only percieve things when we start to examine them like if we cut up a chair then obviously it would have mass but it didn´t need to have it before we look at it the same with bacteria, electrons, photons etc. we can´t see it so why would it be simulated until it was needed? I also like how they use Sims as an example Vsauce did that too with the wall hypothesis like a Sims character can´t walk through a wall even though there actually isn´t any wall it´s just code the same could apply for us, when we toughts a wall it feels solid and we can´t pass through it but maybe it´s code preventing us from doing it.


I didn´t quite understood this but then again it´s 9:37am and I still haven´t been able to sleep so I am concentrating really hard trying to respond since I feel like a zombie right now and was actually supposed to ctb today and I figured since I hadn´t been able to fall asleep at night for the last few nights I might as well take an all nighter but now I just feel tired and confused I even consider to start to day drink today.

Hey. Because I can't verify that anyone outside of my own mind is real, I worry that if there's an afterlife,that when I die, I won't ever know for sure if it's real or if I'm still in a simulation and I didn't actually "die". Basically I fear that my whole existence,even the translation to the afterlife, is all a simulation. Maybe the outside world wants to trick me that reality is real and allow me to connect with other consciousnesses now that I'm in the "afterlife" to convince me that other beings aren't simulations. Basically I can feel the other beings' life forces. But what if those feelings of certainty that I feel when I experience that connection with other beings is also fake. I'm still in the simulation and my brain is being told to feel certain that I'm not alone in existence.


So how can I ever be sure that I am not the only consciousness? (From my perspective)




Hey dude. I had no idea that you were going to ctb today. I'm really sorry about that. I'm here if you need to talk about anything at all. It doesn't have to be philosophy or technical stuff. It's almost 5 am here and I'm going to be up for a few more hours. Do you plan to ctb tomorrow then? What method are you using?

 

[Epsilon0]

It's a funny thing.

I know very little. Yet, when I learn a new thing, I realize I know even less than before I learned that new thing.

Knowledge is funny mathematics.

The more you increase your knowledge, the closer the needle points to zero.

As to your question: I can't think of a happier state of being than complete ignorance. They do say "ignorance is bliss", don't they? Well... I've always wanted to experience a state of bliss.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Hey. Because I can't verify that anyone outside of my own mind is real, I worry that if there's an afterlife,that when I die, I won't ever know for sure if it's real or if I'm still in a simulation and I didn't actually "die". Basically I fear that my whole existence,even the translation to the afterlife, is all a simulation. Maybe the outside world wants to trick me that reality is real and allow me to connect with other consciousnesses now that I'm in the "afterlife" to convince me that other beings aren't simulations. Basically I can feel the other beings' life forces. But what if those feelings of certainty that I feel when I experience that connection with other beings is also fake. I'm still in the simulation and my brain is being told to feel certain that I'm not alone in existence.


So how can I ever be sure that I am not the only consciousness? (From my perspective)




Hey dude. I had no idea that you were going to ctb today. I'm really sorry about that. I'm here if you need to talk about anything at all. It doesn't have to be philosophy or technical stuff. It's almost 5 am here and I'm going to be up for a few more hours. Do you plan to ctb tomorrow then? What method are you using?

You can´t be sure we can only speculate and theorize about it.
Don´t sweat it I doubt I will do it today but I feel at least within this week I just want it all overwith but a big problem for me is that the weather has to be right I want to ctb where my childhood home used to be on a sunny day and I will shoot myself in the temple with my Glock 17 9mm (just in case don´t lecture me about the brainstem)

 

[ALittleBurden]

I just wanted to add my personal perspective on the topic of intelligence causing pain. Sorry if my comment is difficult to understand - I was jumping back and forth, adding stuff but I don't have time to re-read it and make any corrections.

Although the saying "ignorance is bliss" can often be accurate, it's still oversimplifying struggles of life; and the stereotype that someone who's loud, extroverted n simple-minded can't suffer or have important thoughts feels just toxic to me.
When it comes to having some complex thoughts about existence, I believe those struggles one experiences can be more important than the intelligence itself.
You can read tens of philosophy books and be a part of cultured environment; and yet have no deep conclusions about life. Just as well you can be a simple person, never ask yourself any big questions about existence, engage in dumb fun; but learn important lessons from experience.

What I'm trying to say is that facing difficult issues is going to make a person draw conclusions about living, no matter how simple-minded they are.

 

[darkhorse256]

Currently, my brain is really stupid. As in, it can't process things such as my lecture notes. It takes me forever to write an essay or what-not. Everyone says my memory will get better in time but it has been 6 months since my abuse and my brain is perhaps worse off than it initially was. If it makes any sense, I feel like dying because I feel like I'm too stupid to live. I used to be a scholar and now, I can barely read without getting panic attacks/the words becoming cloudy. I keep comparing my current brain to my past one and I'm just thinking "would it be so bad if I ended it?" I can't stand the fact that my memory is not where it once was and perhaps it's sad but I'd rather die than continue living like this.

 

[Majin K.]

I can understand what you mean.

The fact is that most people seem to be stupid. It's society and social media. It's a joke. So many people lack the most important form of common sense. They seem normal then BAM, they say something like " I'm a trump lover FYI " (USA president). Most of the people on this website seem to be much more aware and awoken. But in the real world, society is f'd up.

I get really really mad at stupidity. I'm not sure what type of stupidity annoys you. But I cannot tolerate idiocy. It may be a "brain defect" or something. But I just don't have the patience. I've learned to just ignore society as much as humanly possible. Politics annoy the hell out of me. If I see or hear anything about politics,I get mad and ignore it. I swear ignorance and politics are the most annoying things ever! There's really no way to escape it, sadly. But you don't have to become it! Just ignore them and try to stay sharp. Be aware and don't try too hard. Don't feel obligated or pressured to "blend in" with society.



I wish you peace. I'm here if you want to talk at all. NO POLITICS. ;)

Ah yes being a Trump supporter makes you stupid. U are so very smart. ;)

 

[theguineapigking]

You can´t be sure we can only speculate and theorize about it.
Don´t sweat it I doubt I will do it today but I feel at least within this week I just want it all overwith but a big problem for me is that the weather has to be right I want to ctb where my childhood home used to be on a sunny day and I will shoot myself in the temple with my Glock 17 9mm (just in case don´t lecture me about the brainstem)

You can´t be sure we can only speculate and theorize about it.
Don´t sweat it I doubt I will do it today but I feel at least within this week I just want it all overwith but a big problem for me is that the weather has to be right I want to ctb where my childhood home used to be on a sunny day and I will shoot myself in the temple with my Glock 17 9mm (just in case don´t lecture me about the brainstem)

Hey dude. I wish you the best. Thanks again for chatting with me. Don't hesitate to message me if you need someone to talk to! Even if it's about gta(yes I play on PS4 and I get obliterated by most people).

 

[TAW122]

I'm with you on this too. When I was a naive kid growing up and lacking introspection (childhood and up until about early adulthood), I used to be ignorantly bliss. However, as someone who is an young adult, nearing 30 years of age (which will come later this year), I see life for what it is and I ask myself, "Should I just live to cope, or cope to live "longer" just because people are doing it?" The answer I get from asking myself is, "No, life sucks and there isn't really a purpose for living longer just for the sake of copes or things. In the end, everyone still dies, whether it is at old age, disease, infirmity, tragedy, disaster, etc." I think this is different for everyone and if you feel that you don't wish to live longer, then I wish you peace, or if you decide to live, I also wish you peace.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Hey dude. I wish you the best. Thanks again for chatting with me. Don't hesitate to message me if you need someone to talk to! Even if it's about gta(yes I play on PS4 and I get obliterated by most people).

Thanks but I haven´t played the never ones for some time because social club is so fucked up and never works I can´t even play my original GTA IV, GTA V or Max Payne 3 because I need to be on social club it´s so incredibly stupid since I don´t play only GTA is a sandbox game I enjoy playing offline yet I need to be online to play offline wtf? So I downloaded GTA IV for free so now I don´t need social club and can enjoy just opening the game and play like the good old days of Vice City and San Andreas but recently I mostly play Battlefield 2 (2005) online.

 

[theguineapigking]

Thanks but I haven´t played the never ones for some time because social club is so fucked up and never works I can´t even play my original GTA IV, GTA V or Max Payne 3 because I need to be on social club it´s so incredibly stupid since I don´t play only GTA is a sandbox game I enjoy playing offline yet I need to be online to play offline wtf? So I downloaded GTA IV for free so now I don´t need social club and can enjoy just opening the game and play like the good old days of Vice City and San Andreas but recently I mostly play Battlefield 2 (2005) online.

I hate when companies do stupid things like that. I truly don't understand the thought process that a huge corporate company can have such that they don't even realize how stupid they are.

I played fortnite for a while, but most people that play that are either too good or they try too hard lol. Its such a bad game.

Gta v online is way better, in my opinion, than fortnite. But griefers start to get annoying. I haven't played offline yet.


Do you play on pc I'm guessing? Have you ever tried a modded version of any of the games?( not to necessarily cheat but more for fun)

 

[ALittleBurden]

Currently, my brain is really stupid. As in, it can't process things such as my lecture notes. It takes me forever to write an essay or what-not. Everyone says my memory will get better in time but it has been 6 months since my abuse and my brain is perhaps worse off than it initially was. If it makes any sense, I feel like dying because I feel like I'm too stupid to live. I used to be a scholar and now, I can barely read without getting panic attacks/the words becoming cloudy. I keep comparing my current brain to my past one and I'm just thinking "would it be so bad if I ended it?" I can't stand the fact that my memory is not where it once was and perhaps it's sad but I'd rather die than continue living like this.

I just want to let you know that I'm here if you ever need someone who's also dumb to hear you out.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I hate when companies do stupid things like that. I truly don't understand the thought process that a huge corporate company can have such that they don't even realize how stupid they are.

I played fortnite for a while, but most people that play that are either too good or they try too hard lol. Its such a bad game.

Gta v online is way better, in my opinion, than fortnite. But griefers start to get annoying. I haven't played offline yet.


Do you play on pc I'm guessing? Have you ever tried a modded version of any of the games?( not to necessarily cheat but more for fun)

I tried GTA V online for a bit in the beginning but it got boring quickly and recently I saw a neighbor play it he got killed seconds after taking off the passive mode he couldn´t survive 30 seconds it was so shitty. Imo GTA IV was awesome online to have shootouts with police with your friend helping you but I never played much online in GTA as I said to me it´s a sandbox experience game which is why it pisses me off that I need to be online to play an offline game it´s just an oxymoron. Back when GTA IV first came out many years ago a childhood friend couldn´t even get his game to work at all because of all the problems with social club and on the internet many other people have the same problem I am sure Rockstar has lost thousands of players because they couldn´t even log in because not everyone is a computer expert who can do all kinds of things. Back in the good old days you popped in a disk and it worked no beta game, no constant updates that screw with the game, no DLC and microtransactions you got what you paid for and everyone got the same.

And no I haven´t tried modded versions I am no expert at computers so I can´t figure that out and I am not trying to learn; when you think you might not live longer than a week there are no motivation to spend that time on learning new stuff.

 

[theguineapigking]

I tried GTA V online for a bit in the beginning but it got boring quickly and recently I saw a neighbor play it he got killed seconds after taking off the passive mode he couldn´t survive 30 seconds it was so shitty. Imo GTA IV was awesome online to have shootouts with police with your friend helping you but I never played much online in GTA as I said to me it´s a sandbox experience game which is why it pisses me off that I need to be online to play an offline game it´s just an oxymoron. Back when GTA IV first came out many years ago a childhood friend couldn´t even get his game to work at all because of all the problems with social club and on the internet many other people have the same problem I am sure Rockstar has lost thousands of players because they couldn´t even log in because not everyone is a computer expert who can do all kinds of things. Back in the good old days you popped in a disk and it worked no beta game, no constant updates that screw with the game, no DLC and microtransactions you got what you paid for and everyone got the same.

And no I haven´t tried modded versions I am no expert at computers so I can´t figure that out and I am not trying to learn; when you think you might not live longer than a week there are no motivation to spend that time on learning new stuff.

Dude I completely agree with what you said. It is really annoying nowadays with all the micro transactions. It's really annoying how you also have to know quite a bit to get games installed and troubleshoot if it doesn't work. It used to be as simple as popping in the disc just like you said.

I've never tried gta 4. But it surely sounds better! Police shootouts are the best. I love calling 911 on my virtual phone in gta v and stealing their car!

I get the no motivation thing. I have no motivation to learn either. The worst thing is at my job when they expect me to know things about computers that I don't. I don't want to learn either. I want to spend my time on this website or towards ending myself.

Do you have a planned date now? Or are you just seeing how it plays out? I'm still waiting for the perfect moment, although solipsism is really pushing me towards it.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Dude I completely agree with what you said. It is really annoying nowadays with all the micro transactions. It's really annoying how you also have to know quite a bit to get games installed and troubleshoot if it doesn't work. It used to be as simple as popping in the disc just like you said.

I've never tried gta 4. But it surely sounds better! Police shootouts are the best. I love calling 911 on my virtual phone in gta v and stealing their car!

I get the no motivation thing. I have no motivation to learn either. The worst thing is at my job when they expect me to know things about computers that I don't. I don't want to learn either. I want to spend my time on this website or towards ending myself.

Do you have a planned date now? Or are you just seeing how it plays out? I'm still waiting for the perfect moment, although solipsism is really pushing me towards it.

Also police shootouts are so much better in GTA IV you should try and compare GTA IV with GTA V the police in GTA V are to agressive it´s like they are some insane SWAT team and their cars can keep up with you nomatter how fast you are going all in all they are just to over powered in GTA V so the police shootouts arent as fun.

Well if I can fall asleep and get up in good time I might attempt later today/tomorrow it´s 4:19am right now at least tomorrow will be a dry run if I don´t go through with it.

 

[theguineapigking]

Also police shootouts are so much better in GTA IV you should try and compare GTA IV with GTA V the police in GTA V are to agressive it´s like they are some insane SWAT team and their cars can keep up with you nomatter how fast you are going all in all they are just to over powered in GTA V so the police shootouts arent as fun.

Well if I can fall asleep and get up in good time I might attempt later today/tomorrow it´s 4:19am right now at least tomorrow will be a dry run if I don´t go through with it.

Yeah. It's way overpowered in gta v. Online isn't as bad, but in story mode, you'd better watch out. Doing even the slightest thing wrong will antagonize the police! Have you every heard of a game called awesomenauts? It's a lame, yet fun game. It's just 2d and 3v3. You have to destroy the other team's turrets and then destroy the base. It's pretty straightforward.


Well, should you attempt, I hope things go as well as possible for you. If not, I'm here to talk more about gta!

It's 11:29 here. I assume you live in the uk?

 

[Beautiful_Disgrace]

To be honest I'd much rather be dumb and blissfully unaware if it brought happiness in my life.

Unfortunately once you peak into the abyss you cannot look back.

Same honestly. I have said it before and I will say it again, I envy people who aren't aware that they're sheep.

People who don't understand how truly fucked up the world is, how society is being manipulated, and are just happy with their social media or tv or whatever. They're all brainwashed. I wished it had worked on me so I could live my life the way I want to, instead of how I think I should. No one else seems to do that, stupid people aren't capable of the level of empathy intelligent people are.

I asked my boyfriend why he said and did things he should know upsets me by now, it's been six years. I asked why he never knows when to hold me or talk to me to cheer me up. He straight up told me he doesn't think about it.

I wonder what it's like to not think about anyone but yourself.

 

[theguineapigking]

Km

Same honestly. I have said it before and I will say it again, I envy people who aren't aware that they're sheep.

People who don't understand how truly fucked up the world is, how society is being manipulated, and are just happy with their social media or tv or whatever. They're all brainwashed. I wished it had worked on me so I could live my life the way I want to, instead of how I think I should. No one else seems to do that, stupid people aren't capable of the level of empathy intelligent people are.

I asked my boyfriend why he said and did things he should know upsets me by now, it's been six years. I asked why he never knows when to hold me or talk to me to cheer me up. He straight up told me he doesn't think about it.

I wonder what it's like to not think about anyone but yourself.

You couldn't be more right. Social media is a huge part of why people are so brainwashed. My mom and I feel that 70-90% of people lack the most important form of common sense. The kind of people you would talk with and at first they seem cool, then they say something so out of this world that you realize "Oh my gosh, this person is an idiot" .

It's generally intelligent people that can empathize with what others are going through. I'm sorry that your boyfriend doesn't seem to understand you very well. I assume you've sat him down and really explained this to him and tried to get him to truly understand?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yeah. It's way overpowered in gta v. Online isn't as bad, but in story mode, you'd better watch out. Doing even the slightest thing wrong will antagonize the police! Have you every heard of a game called awesomenauts? It's a lame, yet fun game. It's just 2d and 3v3. You have to destroy the other team's turrets and then destroy the base. It's pretty straightforward.


Well, should you attempt, I hope things go as well as possible for you. If not, I'm here to talk more about gta!

It's 11:29 here. I assume you live in the uk?

That game you mentioned isn´t for me I just looked it up on Youtube and with all the numbers and flashy explosions that pops up just isn´t for me it´s like when I watch people play WOW or LOL to me I can´t see what the hell is going on to be it´s just a punch of flashy explosions on a screen and I can´t tell what is going on or even who is who.

I Doubt today is my day I am up in good time and the weather is fantastic but I feel dirty and feel like I rather want to clean my apartment, grocery shop, get my benzos at the pharmacy and wash a bunch of clothes plus I feel kinda stressed about ctb since there is so much going on these days like I have a meeting tomorrow and my brother have a birthday in a few days and I have a meeting with my psychiatrist in 5 days and the biggest reasons that probably the sole reason I won´t even try is that apparently my niece have a birthday today she turns 5 I knew it was around this time but not exactly today, I really feel the universe screws with me just every time I am about to prepare ctb some close family member has a birthday it pisses me off.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

It's 11:29 here. I assume you live in the uk?

Btw I live in Denmark