Anxieyote
Sobriety over everything else • 30 • Midwest
- Mar 24, 2021
- 445
Brain, please release me. Please stop affecting me and telling me how bad things are. I cant take anymore. We are safe. We have a nice apartment with a functional thermostat. We have entertainment and movies. We have videogames. We have lots of food. It's fine. Everything is fine.
And heart, please stop making my chest hurt, and making me cry. Can you make peace with the fact that we aren't going to have friends or partners anytime soon and relax? It's ok, because we have food, we have water, and we have shelter. It's fine. Your needs are met.
Stop making this place a living hell when it's not and perceiving things in such an awful way. Many would be thankful to be in the position you are in. So just stop. Please fucking stop, because I hate feeling like this whenever I wake up, and I hate drinking at night to have to turn you off. You're ok, and you're fine. You have a nice TV and lots of shows to watch. You're supposed to be helping me survive, not making me want to self-destruct. Produce the happiness chemicals like I know you can and stop making things worse.
And heart, please stop making my chest hurt, and making me cry. Can you make peace with the fact that we aren't going to have friends or partners anytime soon and relax? It's ok, because we have food, we have water, and we have shelter. It's fine. Your needs are met.
Stop making this place a living hell when it's not and perceiving things in such an awful way. Many would be thankful to be in the position you are in. So just stop. Please fucking stop, because I hate feeling like this whenever I wake up, and I hate drinking at night to have to turn you off. You're ok, and you're fine. You have a nice TV and lots of shows to watch. You're supposed to be helping me survive, not making me want to self-destruct. Produce the happiness chemicals like I know you can and stop making things worse.