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Treeline589
Experienced
- Dec 14, 2021
- 234
I'm really struggling right now. As I have mentioned before, me therapist terminated me 4 days ago. To be completely honest, that relationship was the one thing keeping me alive. I know that sounds stupid to most people, but it was. Six years and it's just done. I know I'm going through some grieving, but I feel like I can't even do that right. The pain is just a lot to take and all I want to do is end the pain. I have N and am considering taking it soon. I have a week off from work so I will probably try to make it through the days off, but if things don't improve I'm drinking the N. I have had to deal with suicidal ideation for the last 30 years. I think I have given life a fair shot- tried to get better but in the end its just apparent that I don't belong here, never really have.