Venting struggling

[awaitinglove]

these past few weeks have been nothing but hell. i haven't felt this bad before. i quit therapy because i lost all motivation. on the verge of dropping out of school. i have no one. i don't know what to do with myself. i have never felt this bad. i usually reach out to people when i feel like this but i can't because i have no desire to reach out to anyone. i'm finding a lot of comfort in my depression right now. i normally get scared when i get like this, but that fear doesn't seem to exist anymore. i want to be put out this misery so bad.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Is there any acute reason for your feelings? Or is it just chronic depression? Either way, I'm here if you wanna talk about it. I'll be a shoulder if you need one and hey, maybe it's not to anyone in your real life, but you are reaching out here and that's a start. <3

 

[wastingpotential]

i feel you. depression feels so comfortable and safe to me most times it gets so hard to back out of it, let alone even want to. you're not alone

 

[Unwr!tten]

i feel you. depression feels so comfortable and safe to me most times it gets so hard to back out of it, let alone even want to. you're not alone

Did you know you can be addicted to depression? I mean, I know I am at times. It's like being addicted to feeling adrenaline,

 

[wastingpotential]

Did you know you can be addicted to depression? I mean, I know I am at times. It's like being addicted to feeling adrenaline,

i've heard, i've been addicted to both and i really can see the resemblance. it's almost interesting and terrifying how the chemicals in our brain work this way.

 

[annxietty]

Depression is very comfortable and absolute hell at the same time. There is nothing wrong in wanting to stop suffering, but I think writing your feelings here can help you in some way, reading other people experiences too... Hope you find comfort, life sure is a nightmare most of the times.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Yeah, but that's why I both support the right to die and recovery. It's not my place to tell someone they can't do something, but I will never turn away someone who needs me.
Anyone who reads this, I love you and you can always message me to rant, okay?

 

[awaitinglove]

Is there any acute reason for your feelings? Or is it just chronic depression? Either way, I'm here if you wanna talk about it. I'll be a shoulder if you need one and hey, maybe it's not to anyone in your real life, but you are reaching out here and that's a start. <3

ah where do i start. i have guilt for quitting therapy and my attachment issues are killing me.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Let's start with your quitting therapy.

That is a valid decision. There are dozens of types of therapy and not everyone fits into one box. Like, for myself, art therapy helps me the most. Have you looked into other kinds of therapy?

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

Let's start with your quitting therapy.

That is a valid decision. There are dozens of types of therapy and not everyone fits into one box. Like, for myself, art therapy helps me the most. Have you looked into other kinds of therapy?

In my opinion, there is no good therapy. The purpose of therapy is to deceive you into thinking that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, when in reality, life is a tunnel between the darkness before birth and the darkness after death. If you feel that art therapy helps you, then I say godspeed and good for you. But many people are not helped by any kind of therapy, and must resort to other coping mechanisms - or suicide. That perspective is valid as well.

 

[awaitinglove]

Let's start with your quitting therapy.

That is a valid decision. There are dozens of types of therapy and not everyone fits into one box. Like, for myself, art therapy helps me the most. Have you looked into other kinds of therapy?

well i was in dbt bc i have bpd. ive tried other therapy before but find dbt to be the most helpful. i quit bc i started losing motivation bc of how hopeless i felt. i think i just need a break from therapy right now though.

 

[Unwr!tten]

well i was in dbt bc i have bpd. ive tried other therapy before but find dbt to be the most helpful. i quit bc i started losing motivation bc of how hopeless i felt. i think i just need a break from therapy right now though.

If a breaks what you need him, then take it. Take all the time you need. I always say not to waste your time doing things that make you unhappy. Don't feel bad for taking the time you need, in the meantime, look for and do things you enjoy. Watch a favorite show, paint, go for a run, whatever makes you happy. Therapy will be there when/if you ever decide to g9 back. Enjoy the self care time for now, okay?

In my opinion, there is no good therapy. The purpose of therapy is to deceive you into thinking that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, when in reality, life is a tunnel between the darkness before birth and the darkness after death. If you feel that art therapy helps you, then I say godspeed and good for you. But many people are not helped by any kind of therapy, and must resort to other coping mechanisms - or suicide. That perspective is valid as well.

I completely understand. I don't promote therapy for everyone— in fact, therapy to me doesn't even really mean going out and talking to someone. Therapy to me is another word for self care. There are hobbies and stuff people can do by themselves that are "therapeutic", self harm included. I'm just helping OP with their specific problem and I'm not here to fight or argue with anyone.

 

[Untimely]

these past few weeks have been nothing but hell. i haven't felt this bad before. i quit therapy because i lost all motivation. on the verge of dropping out of school. i have no one. i don't know what to do with myself. i have never felt this bad. i usually reach out to people when i feel like this but i can't because i have no desire to reach out to anyone. i'm finding a lot of comfort in my depression right now. i normally get scared when i get like this, but that fear doesn't seem to exist anymore. i want to be put out this misery so bad.

i know what you mean, especially with the fear no longer being there

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly true that there is too much suffering in existing and I get that it's so horrible when existing here just continues to get worse, this world undeniably is so hellish to me and it's understandable wishing to be free from it all. There really is no relief from suffering as long as one exists here but anyway I wish you the best.