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Suicidalastronaut

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Jan 13, 2026
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I'm at the point where I totally fucked up myself, made people who cared about me lose their interest in me as a person. I've made a complete fool of myself.

I want to end my life this weekend. It would be difficult to hang myself somewhere where I won't be found. But would the result be the same of I just tied something around my neck to cut off blood flow? I can do it while drunk to make the process easier. It would be a slow process but if I time it right no one would check on me for at least 36 hours. Giving plenty of time for the process to work. I know there is a risk of becoming a vegatable with this process, but i don't care as long as i end up not having consciousness.

Is this a valid plan or is there something that I'm missing?
 
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hell toupee

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Sep 9, 2024
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Not sure I understand how you are going to just tie something around your neck and ctb.

If you are able to bring about unconsciousness, as soon as you lose muscle tone and pass out, the needed pressure will be released.

What you are referring to is possibly a ligature attempt?

Most likely, this is not going to work - if it was that easy many people would use it.
 
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aRose

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Jan 18, 2026
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I've practiced but don't feel I could stop myself from panicking. I thought maybe I'd take it up a notch annd and in parts of the "night night" idea - ordered bean bags to maybe put more pressure on the arteries but they kept slipping. I'd need a much wider cord or different bean bags not sure.

Overall though I get the impression it might be somewhat painless. Just as long as you can pass out quickly enough and have everything stay in place.
 
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Suicidalastronaut

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Jan 13, 2026
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Not sure I understand how you are going to just tie something around your neck and ctb.

If you are able to bring about unconsciousness, as soon as you lose muscle tone and pass out, the needed pressure will be released.

What you are referring to is possibly a ligature attempt?

Most likely, this is not going to work - if it was that easy many people would use it.
Okay. So if I want to cut off blood flow to my head I will need to hang myself. I do have access to the attic in my room, I guess I could grab a ladder and hang myself off of the studs.
 
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hell toupee

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Sep 9, 2024
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Okay. So if I need to cut off my blood flow to my neck I will need to hang myself. I do have access to the attic in my room, I guess I could grab a ladder and hang myself off of the studs.

I'm very sorry that things have come down to this for you. I'm not going to suggest ways to off yourself, but I do hope you find the peace you are after.

I would highly suggest you take your time and go through the resource sections here. Otherwise, you may end up in a worse position than you are in now.

CTB is obviously a very serious decision that cannot be reversed, and you don't want to end up as a vegetable for the rest of your life.
 
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Suicidalastronaut

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Jan 13, 2026
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I'm very sorry that things have come down to this for you. I'm not going to suggest ways to off yourself, but I do hope you find the peace you are after.

I would highly suggest you take your time and go through the resource sections here. Otherwise, you may end up in a worse position than you are in now.

CTB is obviously a very serious decision that cannot be reversed, and you don't want to end up as a vegetable for the rest of your life.
My circumstances unfortunately call for a suicide very soon. Some of us are just dealt with a shitty hand in life. It's just how the world is. Some of us exist as a lesson to others of who not be. Not everyone gets a happy ending.
 
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