Venting strange thoughts

[sickoceanbunny]

it's strange, most people, myself included, want a quick painless death

but at the same time, I also secretly want a slow painful death

I want to get hit by a car at full speed and left to bleed to death on the road, all my bones broke and in pure agony

 

[Didn't Ask For This]

Yeah, I feel like I don't deserve a quick death.

 

[killorbekilled]

I extremely hate pain, but I am curious how that would work. Would you feel pain everywhere? Would you go numb? I do not wish to experience it though.

 

[AllTheseQuestions]

I couldn't agree more.

I don't have the guts to do it to myself but I often think about lighting myself on fire; because that kind of pain is what I deserve after what I've done.

Is it guilt that leads you to want a painful death?
I feel as though if I thought the world had wronged me, as oppose to me just being a dreadful person, I would want a peaceful death with as little suffering as possible.

 

[alienfreak]

Not really. I see no point in suffering and want to reduce suffering for all people. Suffering as punishment achieves nothing, and i don't think anyone 'deserves' it because we can't help who we are.

Although, on a tangent, I find the idea of dying in some primal and natural way like being mauled by a lion an interesting idea. I feel so divorced from nature in this manmade horror world of electronics and concrete that from some perspective i can imagine seeing some value in having an experience like that.

 

[sickoceanbunny]

thanks for all the responses

no, I don't feel any kind of guilt and I don't thinking of being punished

I just have this subtle desire for a gruesome painful death for no real reason

 

[coolgal82]

personally idc about my death as long as i just die and its a method i can actually like do or reasonably have happen to me