Venting Still here sadly

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Sorry for dissapointing everyone
Aiming for mid july right now. no guarantees though

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all only you know when the time is right for you to leave, I think it can be difficult setting a date in advance as after all existence is unpredictable. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[Worndown]

Hey, you are here until you go. No apologies needed. Chosen dates are more hope than expectation.

 

[melodyhehe]

Sorry for dissapointing everyone
Aiming for mid july right now. no guarantees though

what method if u dont mind sharing? just curious tbh, i feel like jumping is guaranteed? its what i planned casually w someone i love but they abandoned me lol :)

since u failed ur attempt do u have any thoughts of staying alive? anyway im sorry u have to go through this

Edit * also sry in my earlier post i just assumed u attempted

 

[Baron]

I wish I had the courage to set a date or something similar. I feel so worthless and weak when I think about myself. It's disgusting

 

[whs]

what method if u dont mind sharing? just curious tbh, i feel like jumping is guaranteed? its what i planned casually w someone i love but they abandoned me lol :)

since u failed ur attempt do u have any thoughts of staying alive? anyway im sorry u have to go through this

Edit * also sry in my earlier post i just assumed u attempted

Depends on the height I think. Jumping I've seen hasn't been too effective if its into a road or from a high-ish building but jumping into a body of water looks hopeful.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

what method if u dont mind sharing? just curious tbh, i feel like jumping is guaranteed? its what i planned casually w someone i love but they abandoned me lol :)

since u failed ur attempt do u have any thoughts of staying alive? anyway im sorry u have to go through this

Edit * also sry in my earlier post i just assumed u attempted

i wanted to do GHB + benzos, but some more shit got in the way, unexpected shitty circumstances (wont get into detail), and now it looks like im forced to do partial suspension instead

its not my first pick, neither is it fun or ideal but its the best option i will have by then

also yes i did not attempt yet. dissapointing i know
honestly i just want my first attempt to be succesful

Hey, you are here until you go. No apologies needed. Chosen dates are more hope than expectation.

thank u

 

[istheretrulyalife?]

i wanted to do GHB + benzos, but some more shit got in the way, unexpected shitty circumstances (wont get into detail), and now it looks like im forced to do partial suspension instead

its not my first pick, neither is it fun or ideal but its the best option i will have by then

also yes i did not attempt yet. dissapointing i know
honestly i just want my first attempt to be succesful

thank u

I hope you find peace in whatever lies beyond life. There could be an afterlife or one could simply cease to exist, but in whatever truly happens I hope you get what you want.

 

[MrDarkness]

Don't apologize, it's not your time yet, i hope your able to find peace

 

[reaching_zer0]

You don't have to apologies, i will do it in mid/end july too so good luck to both of us.

 

[guywiththehair]

I wish I had the courage to set a date or something similar. I feel so worthless and weak when I think about myself. It's disgusting

I'm in the same boat. I have so much hate for myself and just want to ctb. I can't seem to set a date because every time I try I end up not doing anything and continuing to suffer.

 

[MiraiShisen]

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i wanted to do GHB + benzos, but some more shit got in the way, unexpected shitty circumstances (wont get into detail), and now it looks like im forced to do partial suspension instead

May I ask you what exact position do you wanna go with partial hanging? I hope your way from this life will be fast and peacefull.

I wish I had the courage to set a date or something similar. I feel so worthless and weak when I think about myself. It's disgusting

It is not that easy, I did it myself and I failed, we are humans not robots so dont be mad at yourself, you will know when your time come by then dont stress about it.

 

[The anhedonic one]

It's ok, really it is. There's nothing to feel bad about. Many of us here including myself have failed CTB in the past.
It's obviously disheartening to fail, yet one day you will get it right.
When that time comes, I wish you a peaceful exit.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

You don't have to apologies, i will do it in mid/end july too so good luck to both of us.

whats your method? mine is partial suspension but i just read up about SWB and it sounds so peaceful im considering it at the nearest lake or just bathtub lol

 

[toofargone6969]

I'm glad youre still here. Stay as long as you like, no one here will judge or be disappointed in your decision.

 

[MiraiShisen]

whats your method? mine is partial suspension but i just read up about SWB and it sounds so peaceful im considering it at the nearest lake or just bathtub lol

can you please give me more info about SWB ? I am interested. Thanks

 

[angel31]

Dont apologize, you didn't disappoint anyone.

 

[Miserious]

Sorry for dissapointing everyone
Aiming for mid july right now. no guarantees though

I hope you find peace in whatever direction your life leads, or stops, my friend. You don't deserve to suffer.

 

[graymatter]

I wish I had the courage to set a date or something similar. I feel so worthless and weak when I think about myself. It's disgusting

I know that feeling. I'm to afraid to go on and more afraid to stop — but always afraid and ashamed.

 

[Meteora]

You don't have to appologise.... I know that feeling.
I m not gonna set a date. I plan to have everything thought through and ready so I can do it in a very miserable situation where I have tunnel vision.

 

[Sweet Tart]

also yes i did not attempt yet. dissapointing i know
honestly i just want my first attempt to be succesful

I'm sorry it feels disappointing to you- no judgment. I feel the same way about wanting to be sure I get it right the first time, especially as there can be so many terrible consequences if things don't go according to plan.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

can you please give me more info about SWB ? I am interested. Thanks

just look at the megathread

I hope you find peace in whatever direction your life leads, or stops, my friend. You don't deserve to suffer.

eh half of it is my fault but its whatever...

I'm sorry it feels disappointing to you- no judgment. I feel the same way about wanting to be sure I get it right the first time, especially as there can be so many terrible consequences if things don't go according to plan.

yeah failing my first attempt would be a fucking nightmare. worst thing ever

 

[reaching_zer0]

whats your method? mine is partial suspension but i just read up about SWB and it sounds so peaceful im considering it at the nearest lake or just bathtub lol

I tried with tramadol, benzo and a bunch of other things and either i had the wrong method or it just doesn't work on me. To be honest i'm tired so my initial plan is to jump from a high place, but even if i know it's the right thing i'm afraid of this method. I'm gonna try to find something like fentanyl or else cause i think it is a much peaceful method, but i don't think it's easy to find in my country sadly. I will take a look at the SWB megathread, it might be interesting