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rebelsue

Hope Addict
Dec 12, 2019
172
I'm worried that a lifetime of trauma, that which has made me want to ctb, has also made my neck muscles hard as rocks from stress and now the rope won't compress my neck in the nice comfortable way where you pass out and don't feel anything.

What the fuck??? I've asked so many people about this in private messages and nobody can give me a straight answer. They just keep repeating the general instructions. I read those. I really just need to post this here and ask for help. Is this a thing? Can you have really tight neck muscles that prevent it from working the proper way? No matter where I put the rope or how I lean or how I hang it, I still end up with the "head pressure" problem. I've started to wonder if that's just going to have to be how it goes for me. Bloated head corpse.

What am I doing wrong? I've read the guide, followed all the drawings, followed the recommendations. I even googled non-suicide stuff like martial arts pressure points to get an exact anatomically correct diagram of where to put the rope so I understand what I'm doing wrong and I think I'm doing it right and it's just not working

What the fuck what the fuck? HELP!
 
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SweetSpot086

Experienced
Aug 25, 2019
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Mike Awesome, a professional wrestler hung himself...dont know partial or full but his neck is thick and muscular..you can google his photos
 
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rebelsue

Hope Addict
Dec 12, 2019
172
That doesn't help me if you don't know if it was full or partial because those have totally different mechanisms so if it was full then it doesn't apply.

There's also a huge difference between strong muscles and over-tensed muscles. I am not a professional wrestler. I am an out of shape middle aged woman.

I am truly amazed that there's nobody in here with this problem. With all the suicidal people, there's got to be a significant portion who have PTSD and tense neck muscles from stress. Maybe i really am truly alone and odd even among the truly alone and odd. Maybe I'm THAT unlucky that the thing that makes me want to die is also the thing preventing me from dying.
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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I have the same problem too when I tried a similar method, I couldn't get the right spot specifically. I couldn't even pass out but at best, felt some sort of lightheadedness. I wished I knew an answer to your question though, but I don't. I apologize if you asked this before, but what kind of rope did you use? I think some ropes may have an impact on whether the method is successful or not since weaker ropes break/couldn't hold a person's weight properly.
 
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Iwantoutrightnow

Experienced
Jun 27, 2019
274
I don't have an answer sorry but you are not alone in this. I have tried with my hands around my neck like it explains in the wiki to try and find the right place but I can't even find my pulse that way. I'm sorry you are feeling so bad
 
disconnection

disconnection

It's the blue hour again
Apr 24, 2020
312
Same to all of this.
 
PrettyMoose

PrettyMoose

Eat my arse, Pain&Sh*tness & Mindf*ckitation Grift
Mar 1, 2020
280
I'm not quite sure what the answer is myself. I know that I'm going to try padding.
 
JustAnotherSuicider

JustAnotherSuicider

Hoping for the best - expecting the worst
Dec 28, 2019
98
Similar problem here, it seems like my CA are placed too deep into my neck and I'm not able to put enough pressure on these to pass out :(
 
beyond_aquila_rift

beyond_aquila_rift

Student
May 11, 2020
103
I tried SEVERAL times and it didn't work. Tried padding, etc etc etc.
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I have also hard neck muscles, but one time a try worked fopr me to pass out. Some people have their carotids really deep into the neck, so that partial hardly works. A hard neck could be one thing but I think it´s more a problem that your carotids a re located to deep into your neck
 
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Valsalva

Member
Feb 25, 2020
96
If I remember that correctly, you did full. Everyone is supposed to pass out swift with full with the whole body mass. The problem seems to be partial.

Pls correct me if I am wrong.
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
You are right, partial is much more complicated and yes it was full for me, but I also tried partial before but didn´t like it
 
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Valsalva

Member
Feb 25, 2020
96
I am interested in your story (full suspension) and how you have been "saved". Can we PM?
 
Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
Yes just write me if you like
 

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