Everything's been going downhill. I was doing pretty good in January and feeling like I could succeed but ig I'm just more useless than I thought. I'm so fucking lazy and just seem content to let everything collapse around me. All ive done is just let things get to the point that they're irrecoverable AGAIN. Idk I'm just kinda tired of waking up and feeling like a failure all the time. I'm feeling less lonely than i was but im just so incapable of verbalising how im doing to anyone that I may as well be a different person.
I think I might try and hang myself but I'm so scared of being found prematurely and of the pain. Does anyone know if drinking a bunch beforehand or doing drugs like ketamine might make it bearable??
I think I might try and hang myself but I'm so scared of being found prematurely and of the pain. Does anyone know if drinking a bunch beforehand or doing drugs like ketamine might make it bearable??
