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JackTheStripper
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- Dec 26, 2020
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So, I have anorexia b/p subtype and I have a bmi of 14. I've been anorexic for almost 6 years now and I keep thinking about starving myself to death. After all, it would look like my death was an accident and maybe my family (who doesn't know that I'm anorexic) could handle it better if they didn't know that it was actually suicide.
But starving is a fucking long process. Especially bc I have episodes of binging and purging which can mess up the 'progress' I made. I lost about 17 Kg in 6 months and I have at least 7 Kg more to lose until I reach a life threatening weight.
But my sisters are already starting to ask questions and I don't know if I can keep this shit up any longer... I'm constantly on the verge of passing out and my heart is at 42 (sometimes 39) beats per minute. And STILL my stupid body is like: 'Fuck this shit, the bitch is healthy enough to still have periods n stuff like that.'
URRGH, why?!
Sry for the lil rant here. Any thoughts on this?
But starving is a fucking long process. Especially bc I have episodes of binging and purging which can mess up the 'progress' I made. I lost about 17 Kg in 6 months and I have at least 7 Kg more to lose until I reach a life threatening weight.
But my sisters are already starting to ask questions and I don't know if I can keep this shit up any longer... I'm constantly on the verge of passing out and my heart is at 42 (sometimes 39) beats per minute. And STILL my stupid body is like: 'Fuck this shit, the bitch is healthy enough to still have periods n stuff like that.'
URRGH, why?!
Sry for the lil rant here. Any thoughts on this?