Starting smoking

[CremstDearest]

I'm thinking of starting to smoke, or vape (douchebaggy I know), I'm not much of a smoker but I used to be addicted to vaping when I was 17 (a year ago) and it comes back slowly and goes away, though I like the taste, aswell with cigarettes and those flavoured balls, the issue is, I have lung issues, I have difficulty breathing, I've had this for 5 years and it gets worse and worse, my mom took me to a hospital once 5 years ago, and they said it was just an allergy and dismissed me, 2 years ago it got really bad that I'd coughed up blood for a month straight, though my mother never took me to a hospital, the blood came back a while ago snd today aswell, the coughing is getting worse and worse, it hurts my back, my throat, my lungs get sharp pains and it geniunely hurts so much, I got a strong rooster cough and It hurts me so fucking much.

I feel like I'm gonna die from this anyways, so I might aswell smoke right? Not in a ctb attempt though, more of just, my mom won't take me to a hospital and it hurts a shit ton, the knly downside is it hurts me so much, but i feel like I desreve that pain..

I'm not sure honestly, any idea what brand I should try? I live in turkey, not sure about the cigarette brands here.