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[denjiwillsaveme]

I wish I was gone from this world. I have no purpose besides breathing, eating, and moving.
I almost died today in a car accident.
I don't know what to do anymore, I can't seem to seek happiness because even if I laugh right now and smile as hard as I can at this very moment,
In the back of my mind, I have this creepy but silent news of all the bad things happening at this moment.
I have no desires nor any motivation to do anything, I'm so lonely.
I'm so alone.
Everything feels so cold and no warmth is present with me.
I want to talk to someone who can understand me and wants to hug me.
But I have to be strong around others as they need me more than I need myself.
I hope for better days but I don't know when better days will happen.
Hopefully, soon, I'll get really tired.
If I leave this world I hope it's in my sleep because I don't want to involve the people around me.
I wish I just slept away for hours and hours without disturbance.
Nothing feels real and everything feels foreign.
I can't seem to love the way I did before.
The things I used to hold so dear before are all gone.
I'm empty.

 

[Csmith8827]