dollofyarn
Member
- Dec 15, 2025
- 6
hi people
Lately I have been spiraling a lot. This evening it's the same again. I know I am still young and people would say that I have a whole life ahead of me. I understand that it might seem like that for people but I can no longer put that thought into my own head anymore. I know that my whole life is going to be hard because of my mental illnesses and frankly I'm way too tired to try to make something out of it. I probably sound lazy as fuck while saying this too. I just don't have the energy anymore I guess. It also doesn't help that I can't find joy in things either. I'm constantly on edge. I hate my appearance and don't want to eat anymore. I don't have anything to live for. I have no goals in life. There's nothing for me here! I've tried my hardest to put myself out there and meet people and do things and make connections… But to no avail as always. Can people tell that I'm just weird as fuck? Even though I try my hardest to fit in? I feel and sound so pathetic
Lately I have been spiraling a lot. This evening it's the same again. I know I am still young and people would say that I have a whole life ahead of me. I understand that it might seem like that for people but I can no longer put that thought into my own head anymore. I know that my whole life is going to be hard because of my mental illnesses and frankly I'm way too tired to try to make something out of it. I probably sound lazy as fuck while saying this too. I just don't have the energy anymore I guess. It also doesn't help that I can't find joy in things either. I'm constantly on edge. I hate my appearance and don't want to eat anymore. I don't have anything to live for. I have no goals in life. There's nothing for me here! I've tried my hardest to put myself out there and meet people and do things and make connections… But to no avail as always. Can people tell that I'm just weird as fuck? Even though I try my hardest to fit in? I feel and sound so pathetic