Help Southern California Desperation

[the_final_countdown]

Is there anybody. Anybody at all. I don't know. I'm desperate.

Someone that can kill me with a gun. I can't do it myself.

I'll give you all my money. Please. God. Please.

 

[Rayzieka]

Something is telling me this wont go over as you wish.

 

[the_final_countdown]

Something is telling me this wont go over as you wish.

I came close once. 1 gram of sodium nitrite. Felt so dizzy just from that small amount. Skin started turning brown. Heart felt strange. Was like that for hours.

Can you fault me for trying?

I've tried nearly every day since December. Start disassociating after a while. I don't have the ability to do it. I don't have the personality for it.

Everyone here is like that. They research and research and research because we all are the studious type. The ones that live anyways.