Some place nice
This world makes me sick
- Oct 18, 2023
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I don't want to exist but, I didn't want to Ctb. I haven't thought of it since high school but now some of my mental issues has gotten worse and not ever finding the love I wish so much for has me at my wits end. I don't have a precise date yet bc I want to go on my trip next week and I don't want my cat to grief me before we put her down.
She is a nice cat but she had a traumatic experience when she got pregnant. Now she is getting bullied by my uncles cat. She attacks the other cats and is slowly turning on us when she isn't locked in a room or if we try to let her out. Her full title is Patchy the Pirate. She had a little spot on her eye that looked just like a patch. She got her name from Sponge Bob ofc.
Speaking about my issues that have gotten worse, I have psychosis nos (not specified), depression nos, and homicidal ideation. All three of them have gotten worse so all I can think is harm to people and Ctb. Y'all might think me crazy, and you'll be right. But I'm just lost in this shroud of not wanting to exist.
Sorry if this vent doesn't make a whole lotta since. I have just had a lot on my mind rn and needed to get it off somewhere.
She is a nice cat but she had a traumatic experience when she got pregnant. Now she is getting bullied by my uncles cat. She attacks the other cats and is slowly turning on us when she isn't locked in a room or if we try to let her out. Her full title is Patchy the Pirate. She had a little spot on her eye that looked just like a patch. She got her name from Sponge Bob ofc.
Speaking about my issues that have gotten worse, I have psychosis nos (not specified), depression nos, and homicidal ideation. All three of them have gotten worse so all I can think is harm to people and Ctb. Y'all might think me crazy, and you'll be right. But I'm just lost in this shroud of not wanting to exist.
Sorry if this vent doesn't make a whole lotta since. I have just had a lot on my mind rn and needed to get it off somewhere.