secretariat
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- Mar 2, 2024
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not sure if things will be ok atp. ummm might go soon maybe next saturday when everyone is out
sn from early last year and havent been stored properly but ill do a blood test and see if its worth attempting. im too tired to try and get a new batch since its much harder to get now and i dont want to risk anything
its from a trusted source but it looked weird? (like regular salt?) but it passed the blood test at that time so hopefully!
i dont have antiemetics but i think it should be fine. worst case scenario is i get found by family and/or survive with brain damage fingers crossed that wont happen
not sure yet but might start cleaning up my stuff soon and uhhh if i do plan on going through with it ill probably update. if not i might also update maybe
idk whats going to happen to my money in the bank if i do die. hopefully it just goes to my parents without needing a lengthy process. thought abt naming them beneficiaries but i would have to go to the bank and idk if it would be confidential. would it be suspicious for a 20 year old to do that. its not a crazy amount of money but ive been saving a lot hmmm
sorry this post is a mess im just dumping everything that comes to mind. theres actually a lot to do when youre planning to die and its making my mind a mess. i need to clean out my pictures and my social media accounts and probably some other stuff uhh
its also a weird feeling when everyone around you is living normally and having fun when this feels like it might be the end for me
any opinions or words of wisdom on anything would be appreciated too or maybe chatting abt random things. its nice talking to people on here everyones super nice. im a chronic lurker on every site except this one where i actually speak wow
sn from early last year and havent been stored properly but ill do a blood test and see if its worth attempting. im too tired to try and get a new batch since its much harder to get now and i dont want to risk anything
its from a trusted source but it looked weird? (like regular salt?) but it passed the blood test at that time so hopefully!
i dont have antiemetics but i think it should be fine. worst case scenario is i get found by family and/or survive with brain damage fingers crossed that wont happen
not sure yet but might start cleaning up my stuff soon and uhhh if i do plan on going through with it ill probably update. if not i might also update maybe
idk whats going to happen to my money in the bank if i do die. hopefully it just goes to my parents without needing a lengthy process. thought abt naming them beneficiaries but i would have to go to the bank and idk if it would be confidential. would it be suspicious for a 20 year old to do that. its not a crazy amount of money but ive been saving a lot hmmm
sorry this post is a mess im just dumping everything that comes to mind. theres actually a lot to do when youre planning to die and its making my mind a mess. i need to clean out my pictures and my social media accounts and probably some other stuff uhh
its also a weird feeling when everyone around you is living normally and having fun when this feels like it might be the end for me
any opinions or words of wisdom on anything would be appreciated too or maybe chatting abt random things. its nice talking to people on here everyones super nice. im a chronic lurker on every site except this one where i actually speak wow
Ive been feeling the same way. I dont want to leave a mess for my parents so Im also going through my things and organizing accounts. 
