Soon ill CTB

[Opossum]

Ok... so, i thought everything was going good... better even... but now, i just cant anymore... ill be useing a train as my method if i can... or just wondering the streets tell i drop or get kidnapped... i have some crap packed, and ill be gone soon hopefully. I was hoping that the comic and shit i started doing would be able to bring back my will to go on, but as always! My mother and her friends ruined it by trying to force me into what they want me to do once again without takeing my wants and needs into account... this is the last time my hope is crushed.

Idk what day ill be heading off, but they are holding the wifi hostage from me so dont expect me to respond, i want to reply but simply cant easily or often if at all.

 

[CatLvr]

I am going to miss you.

 

[Opossum]

I am going to miss you.

Same, you and everyone else on here are so nice and good company to talk and vent to... i feel so bad for leveing so suddenly like this, but i just cant take anymore.

 

[CatLvr]

Same, you and everyone else on here are so nice and good company to talk and vent to... i feel so bad for leveing so suddenly like this, but i just cant take anymore.

I understand. But you know where we are if you change your mind. And there is no shame in changing your mind and deciding to wait. Whatever you do, I hope you find the peace we all crave so bad.

 

[Opossum]

I understand. But you know where we are if you change your mind. And there is no shame in changing your mind and deciding to wait. Whatever you do, I hope you find the peace we all crave so bad.

Thank you, if i don't change my mind soon, then ill miss you and if there is a after life maybe we will talk and be friends again some day☺ And if i do, well ill talk to you later

 

[CatLvr]

Thank you, if i don't change my mind soon, then ill miss you and if there is a after life maybe we will talk and be friends again some day☺ And if i do, well ill talk to you later

I do believe in a life after death. We will definitely chat again -- in this life or the next. Love you, sweetie!!

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace, it's truly such a cruel existence where there's all this suffering.

 

[Opossum]

Ok... so, i thought everything was going good... better even... but now, i just cant anymore... ill be useing a train as my method if i can... or just wondering the streets tell i drop or get kidnapped... i have some crap packed, and ill be gone soon hopefully. I was hoping that the comic and shit i started doing would be able to bring back my will to go on, but as always! My mother and her friends ruined it by trying to force me into what they want me to do once again without takeing my wants and needs into account... this is the last time my hope is crushed.

Idk what day ill be heading off, but they are holding the wifi hostage from me so dont expect me to respond, i want to reply but simply cant easily or often if at all.

Ok, update,
I dont have much time to talk or post right now, having wifi restricted is a massive bitch... but im gonna try contacting some groups and such that help with mental health stuff and such as a last attempt to get better. Im gonna try and get to my grandma's so i can have 24/7 wifi, but i can only stay a max of 2 days, so how much i can get done or going depends on if i get responses in 48 hours or less by the time i get there, if my ride shows up or even agrees to take me... if i do end up going to my grandma's ill update asap when in there. But from how her voice sounded and how unreliable my main person to get rides from is, i feel it wont happen, so dont count on a grandma's house update.

 

[CatLvr]

Please update when you can but don't stress about us. You do whatever you need to to feel better. Just remember that we are all here for you.

I think you need a kitty picture -- these 2 are inseparable. And HILARIOUS!

 

[trs]

Please update when you can but don't stress about us. You do whatever you need to to feel better. Just remember that we are all here for you.

I think you need a kitty picture -- these 2 are inseparable. And HILARIOUS!
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How wonderful to have 2 like these in your life.

 

[Opossum]

Ok, update,
I dont have much time to talk or post right now, having wifi restricted is a massive bitch... but im gonna try contacting some groups and such that help with mental health stuff and such as a last attempt to get better. Im gonna try and get to my grandma's so i can have 24/7 wifi, but i can only stay a max of 2 days, so how much i can get done or going depends on if i get responses in 48 hours or less by the time i get there, if my ride shows up or even agrees to take me... if i do end up going to my grandma's ill update asap when in there. But from how her voice sounded and how unreliable my main person to get rides from is, i feel it wont happen, so dont count on a grandma's house update.

UPDATE!

Ok, im at grandma's for 2-3 days, shes gonna help me call and talk to a few different groups/ organizations to hopefully get help for me without horrific medical bills. Im feeling better being away from my mom and her roof at lest for a bit, so my mood is better for now! I dont wanna get my hopes up, but im hopeing that at lest these calls will get me on a path that doesn't have a dead end. The only thing bothering me right now is the fact i forgot my ear buds but remembered the Piercing needles and stuff. sometimes i wanna punch myself for my stupidity. But im hopefully on a better path! So my death is on hold again tell further notice.

Please update when you can but don't stress about us. You do whatever you need to to feel better. Just remember that we are all here for you.

I think you need a kitty picture -- these 2 are inseparable. And HILARIOUS!
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I love! There soooo cuteeeeee!! and your cat looks like a darker colored version of minee! ( Without the two little chips in his ears too lol)

 

[Opossum]

Ok, update,
I dont have much time to talk or post right now, having wifi restricted is a massive bitch... but im gonna try contacting some groups and such that help with mental health stuff and such as a last attempt to get better. Im gonna try and get to my grandma's so i can have 24/7 wifi, but i can only stay a max of 2 days, so how much i can get done or going depends on if i get responses in 48 hours or less by the time i get there, if my ride shows up or even agrees to take me... if i do end up going to my grandma's ill update asap when in there. But from how her voice sounded and how unreliable my main person to get rides from is, i feel it wont happen, so dont count on a grandma's house update.

Update...
So been here at grandma's caling different people, and such, and trying to find something that can help, but i haven't even had a call back.... and i already over stayed my welcome trying to wait for a call back from at least one of the places.

I sware i just wasn't ment to be ok and happy.

 

[asa]

UPDATE!

Ok, im at grandma's for 2-3 days, shes gonna help me call and talk to a few different groups/ organizations to hopefully get help for me without horrific medical bills. Im feeling better being away from my mom and her roof at lest for a bit, so my mood is better for now! I dont wanna get my hopes up, but im hopeing that at lest these calls will get me on a path that doesn't have a dead end. The only thing bothering me right now is the fact i forgot my ear buds but remembered the Piercing needles and stuff. sometimes i wanna punch myself for my stupidity. But im hopefully on a better path! So my death is on hold again tell further notice.

I love! There soooo cuteeeeee!! and your cat looks like a darker colored version of minee! ( Without the two little chips in his ears too lol)

I am glad that staying at your grandma's house took your mind off of things. Hopefully you're able to find resources to help you out<3