Sometimes I feel like it never happened

[sximii]

I got abused as a child, but then I forgot it for a few years. Just flew out of my mind. I think it's called dissociative amnesia. But now that I've recalled it seems so… distant. Like what if I made it up? It never actually happened and I'm blaming an innocent person for my problems? What if my parents decide to take legal charges and turns out it never happened? Cause it's so difficult to fully remember everything in detail, it feels so fake even, like a dream and not a memory. I hate living with the paranoia that I might be accusing someone that never did anything bad. Does that happen? Can the brain make up memories? Or is it just me worrying too much? How do I know? Has this feeling happened to anyone else?

 

[atrophy]

I was physically and mentally abused as a child.

I confronted them recently and they deny ever doing that.

They invalidated my feelings and dismissed them.
I doubted myself too and I thought I was making it up.

Your forgot your trauma in order to cope/protect yourself from the bad memories and to try to lead a normal life. (this is my theory)

 

[sximii]

I was physically and mentally abused as a child.

I confronted them recently and they deny ever doing that.

They invalidated my feelings and dismissed them.
I doubted myself too and I thought I was making it up.

Your forgot your trauma in order to cope/protect yourself from the bad memories and to try to lead a normal life. (this is my theory)

I see. That could be possible, but how do I know?