Venting sometimes i drink sn just for fun

[aeri]

my advice for you is: DON'T

It's not even fun, it just fuckin hurts especially when you puke it all

yesterday was the worst, i drank more than usual so I was a little high but I really was in pain. not even the pleasurable pain, just pain. ok i deserved it, i was feeling like shit and all
But yeah get drunk, don't drink sn if you don't want to end it....

 

[the_final_countdown]

I don't understand. You regularly consume SN, vomit it up, and somehow still live?

That sounds terrible. So much suffering.

 

[C_F]

I also don't understand. Please don't refer to it as fun or a high. I see that you say later it's not fun and maybe you were already high on something else? However, this post can be misconstrued.

People... please don't drink SN unless you have fully decided to CTB.

 

[Life sucks]

Please don't take SN or any chemical related to ctb as microdoses. The tolerance for the chemicals increases and it might affect the method.

 

[Rayzieka]

Im not comprehending why this would be done... Are you alright now?

 

[aeri]

I don't understand. You regularly consume SN, vomit it up, and somehow still live?

That sounds terrible. So much suffering.

yeah i dont really know neither how I am alive... really is a pain yeah
I always selfharmed, I use it as a way to sh like I could fast for days, like I could cut and such
but yeah im surprised I am still there tho it simply could be because I never take enough to die. but yesterday really was close to it

I also don't understand. Please don't refer to it as fun or a high. I see that you say later it's not fun and maybe you were already high on something else? However, this post can be misconstrued.

People... please don't drink SN unless you have fully decided to CTB.

well it does make me high, I was on anything else than sn
i find it fun because in general selfharm for me is fun, but if we think more than 2 sec we see there's nothing fun in it, im just truly stupid

and yeah totally agree on your last point that's why i ended my first post with that

don't drink sn. if you don't wanna end it. find another way to sh this one really is bad

Im not comprehending why this would be done... Are you alright now?

just doing this to self-harm

and now im okay i think? I believe there's still some sn in me but nothing horrible. I can feel that something is wrong and I still have a little headache but it won't bother me more than this
at least it made me lose some weight lmao, better than fasting and working out....

 

[Rayzieka]

do you mind me asking how much was taken

 

[aeri]

do you mind me asking how much was taken

aaa I don't really know i do it quite randomly, but less than the amount required to ctb

 

[BlankUser]

It's a form of self harm I guess.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yeah, I wouldn't do that.
However, if I had SN with me, I might drink impulsively some random day on which my bipolar disorder activates its DOWNS.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I don't know what it's like to feel pleasurable pain, I only know painful pain! I envy that you can be so blasé about it, just taking a sip now and then lol. I wish I were the same, so I could just go and ctb already. What do you mean you deserved it? You think you deserve punishment for having done something wrong? I don't understand.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

If possible, can you describe the pain a little bit ? Like what part of your body was experiencing the pain ?

 

[FuneralCry]

I would never do this personally unless I was certain about ctb there is a chance it can kill you as it is poisionous to humans. I'm pretty sure people have died before just taking a little bit (I could be wrong though) If I wanted to self harm as a form of relief, I would use other methods. I wish you the best.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

You don't have to suffer like this.
If I had SN I would take only the lethal dose.