No no i gotchu. Ur raising some good points. I don't know how to talk to ppl abt it. I suppose every time I have, it's been downplayed bc 'everyone feels sad sometimes'. I hate the negative attention and the thought of being a burden. Maybe I'm playing it off as a joke but I want help? I also don't want to get sent to a ward or smth. Thank u for replying btw ◡̈
Right, if every time you bring it up in a sincere way, people brush you off, using humour at least gives you the out of "nah, I'm joking" if things get uncomfortable. Yes, "everyone feels sad sometimes," and even people who are "just" sad might say they want to die, or something like that. But it's different if that thought is with you often.
I've come to realise that, more often than not, it is not that people do not care. They just don't know how to react when someone says, with a straight face, "I want to die." Some brush it off, some tell you you're being dramatic, others might choose to ignore it, because it is an uncomfortable thought for them to hold. It's not malicious, but it sure makes things much more difficult to navigate.
Now, a predictable question: if you want to talk about it, and be taken seriously, have you considered a therapist? Simply expressing suicidal thoughts it not grounds to be sent to a ward or anything like that. Any vaguely competent therapist should be able to distinguish between someone struggling with suicidal ideation, and someone who is about to drink bleach or jump off a bridge. Finding a decent therapist can be a bit of a pain, depending on where you are, and on your circumstances. But I can certainly recommend trying. Probably wouldn't be here typing this if it weren't for that.
