Talk, respect without encourage can prevent mistakes and failure. You are tired of chatting, but this is all the best people here can do. CTB or keep living no need any reason as long as you can live with it or without it. Everyone here has his/her problem. No matter what problem you have, you are the one need to face it. Lots of people say you understand. It's true. We all wish we have wonderful life. Anyway, Good luck and wish you the best.