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ConsumedMoonpowder
Did something VERY WRONG
- Nov 9, 2023
- 8
My plan is to ctb. I'm trying to come up with ideas now so that I can plan it out completely by the time I get to my deadline.
I'm gonna be 100% honest, jumping from a high place is by far the easiest way out for me, but the idea seems super boring.
One idea I had in mind was to combine self-stabbing with drowning, but there are some details that I haven't quite worked out:
I would do it next to a pond and stab myself in the stomach such that I would into the pond (what if I didn't stab hard enough? could SI save me from falling in?). Then, due to the extreme pain, I'd imagine that I would not be able to swim up even if I tried (what if I could swim despite the pain?) and I would have a weight tied to myself to pull me down into the water, then I would pass out from the blood loss and drown (would I start drowning before I pass out?)
I'm thinking of doing this at late night, but that I can work out later. One very big problem I have is location. I think that the pond I've chosen is fitting for my suicide. Unfortunately it isn't ideal as it is a 2 minute walk away from a building which is guarded at night, although they won't be able to see me because of trees and darkness. The pond is also incredibly small. On top of that, I have no knowledge on the depth of the pond, which is incredibly risky, but I'll try to figure out the depth of the pond whenever I get a chance to.
I just want to hear some of your thoughts. Is this even doable? Is this realistic? Any improvements? Or should I ditch this idea entirely?
I'm gonna be 100% honest, jumping from a high place is by far the easiest way out for me, but the idea seems super boring.
One idea I had in mind was to combine self-stabbing with drowning, but there are some details that I haven't quite worked out:
I would do it next to a pond and stab myself in the stomach such that I would into the pond (what if I didn't stab hard enough? could SI save me from falling in?). Then, due to the extreme pain, I'd imagine that I would not be able to swim up even if I tried (what if I could swim despite the pain?) and I would have a weight tied to myself to pull me down into the water, then I would pass out from the blood loss and drown (would I start drowning before I pass out?)
I'm thinking of doing this at late night, but that I can work out later. One very big problem I have is location. I think that the pond I've chosen is fitting for my suicide. Unfortunately it isn't ideal as it is a 2 minute walk away from a building which is guarded at night, although they won't be able to see me because of trees and darkness. The pond is also incredibly small. On top of that, I have no knowledge on the depth of the pond, which is incredibly risky, but I'll try to figure out the depth of the pond whenever I get a chance to.
I just want to hear some of your thoughts. Is this even doable? Is this realistic? Any improvements? Or should I ditch this idea entirely?