chobonzi
heartbroken
- Apr 13, 2024
- 39
so i i had planned on ctb on the 20th or the 21st, however i didnt have the money to get a certain substance. Yesterday someone told me they can have a firearm for sale and i cant get one legally right now due to legal issues. So hopefully i can get it this week and on the weekend end the suffering. I was starting to want to try and get myself to feel better, however Yesterday my mothers son told me i can't video chat my son anymore because her boyfriend is jealous. It turned into a huge argument between me and her bf and now im blocked on both her account and his. She wants me to sign my rights over, however if i ctb before court, atleast my son will get survivor benefits. Probably better than anything i can give him in life. Crossing my fingers this goes through and if not that plan, i plan on going to get said substance because its everywhere. I hope we all find peace in whatever we do. Weather it be recovery or ctb, we shouldn't have to suffer.
