For me, feelings are dominated by emptiness. Sometimes nervousness or a little joy. I have never been convinced by empty phrases about happiness or hard work, or I have stopped to get something out too quickly. I just gave up too quickly.
I heard from my immediate family that they practically never wanted to have children. They themselves began to take on imposed social roles for comfort and a bearable existence. When I mentioned suicide, I heard that I could always hang myself, and later that everything would be fine. When I talked about psychiatric treatment, I heard that I could drink a St. John's Wort.
I have a slight form of autism, so I see the world a little differently.
I never tried to kill myself before.
I always dreamt that I would die young in an accident or in my sleep because of a genetic defect or disease complications. Even sometimes I thought that suicide could take me to another, better world.
I'm currently in the process of finding the best suicide method for me. When I decide to do so, I will deactivate my account and go away satisfied. Do you have any motivation methods? I want to look for and try to make up my mind and I really just want the peace and blissful nothingness that will surround me.
What are your ways of motivating research and taking action ?
I hope my statement is clear and you understand how I feel.
PS.
Please don't tell me nonsense. This is the only additional rule to this discussion.
I heard from my immediate family that they practically never wanted to have children. They themselves began to take on imposed social roles for comfort and a bearable existence. When I mentioned suicide, I heard that I could always hang myself, and later that everything would be fine. When I talked about psychiatric treatment, I heard that I could drink a St. John's Wort.
I have a slight form of autism, so I see the world a little differently.
I never tried to kill myself before.
I always dreamt that I would die young in an accident or in my sleep because of a genetic defect or disease complications. Even sometimes I thought that suicide could take me to another, better world.
I'm currently in the process of finding the best suicide method for me. When I decide to do so, I will deactivate my account and go away satisfied. Do you have any motivation methods? I want to look for and try to make up my mind and I really just want the peace and blissful nothingness that will surround me.
What are your ways of motivating research and taking action ?
I hope my statement is clear and you understand how I feel.
PS.
Please don't tell me nonsense. This is the only additional rule to this discussion.
