Venting Social Anxiety making me want to ctb

[justanotherperson]

It's always there. I don't want help anymore. I flipping can't even go outside without having a panic attack. What the heck do i do with my life? I see no future for myself.

 

[_Minsk]

Social Anxiety sucks, it has become so bad for me that i can't even function anymore, work is hell, going for buying food is hell.. and most people play it down like its just that you're shy and so on, i can relate a lot, you're not alone

oh and welcome btw!

 

[randomz]

Have you tried taking meds or CBT? I also have a form of social anxiety but it's not so severe and it's only a small problem in my daily life so I can understand your pain and hope you get better.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I have some social anxiety too. For example when I have to talk in public in front of lots of people I start to shake, my voice trembles, my face get red. It sucks. I was never so social. I have few friends and never had a girlfriend. But I don't care about that anymore. I realized I had bigger problems than that. And I can't love others if I don't love myself.
I have some social anxiety too. For example when I have to talk in public in front of lots of people I start to shake, my voice trembles, my face get red. It sucks. I was never so social. I have few friends and never had a girlfriend. But I don't care about that anymore. I realized I had bigger problems than that. And I can't love others if I don't love myself.

 

[Forgiveme]

I am also scared of people and things they are capable of doing.

 

[justanotherperson]

Have you tried taking meds or CBT? I also have a form of social anxiety but it's not so severe and it's only a small problem in my daily life so I can understand your pain and hope you get better.

I've done that. I'm taking meds rn. I'm just tired of living with fear. Nothing helps anymore, but thank you :)

Social Anxiety sucks, it has become so bad for me that i can't even function anymore, work is hell, going for buying food is hell.. and most people play it down like its just that you're shy and so on, i can relate a lot, you're not alone

oh and welcome btw!

Thank you :)

 

[lion4000b]

I never used to have social anxiety at all. Could speak to anyone and in front of endless people. Really smooth with girls etc. Then I got bad health problems. Now I have chronic anxiety (among other things) and Im a hermit. Im confident, deeply philosophical and dont care what people think but my body is so reactive that it freaks out to loud noises, bright lights etc. so social situations exasperate it immensely. Im also exhausted, in pain and depressed which doesnt help.

One thing I noticed that makes it 10x worse is what I eat and whether Im thirsty because of my autoimmune issues. If I have a social situation that is unavoidable I avoid trigger foods for at least 3 days and always have a bottle of water with me. Its still hard but 90% of the time I can manage it. If I have a glass of milk or peanuts for example I cant go to the local shops without chronic anxiety because Ive exasperated the underlying physical problem. In other words its not an issue of people or social situations but rather my body is broken and not working properly.

I dont know you or your body, but perhaps thats something worth exploring. Get a full body check up and toggle with your diet and maybe you will feel better.

 

[Mooshi]

I know how you feel, I also have super bad social anxiety. I can't even take a walk around my town, or go to the grocery store without freaking out. I get super nauseous, I shake, I get all sweaty and red, it's awful.

And welcome to the forum

 

[social_anxiety_sucks]

I can relate to that. I lost my job due to really bad social anxiety. Couldn't have meetings, answer calls on the phone or talk normally with people.
I hate myself

 

[Outsider]

Same, makes me want to ctb. Lost job, now can't work, can't do almost anything involving other ppl. It's hell.

 

[MaybeSoon]

Social anxiety is the worst. It drove me to drink a lot to be able to cope in social situations, since no medication or therapy worked for me. Which in turn made me (more often than not) make a fool of myself. Vicious cycle. Literally ruined most of my life and all started from panic attacks.

I know how you feel, I also have super bad social anxiety. I can't even take a walk around my town, or go to the grocery store without freaking out. I get super nauseous, I shake, I get all sweaty and red, it's awful.

And welcome to the forum

Mine used to be that bad but lots of exposure helped. I still hate bumping into people I know outside though, but I think that's because I know they'll ask questions and I'll have to try to avoid telling them how fucked up I am

 

[tmcglone25]

What is CTB?

 

[Vault of Memories]

Social anxiety, generalized anxiety, and anxiety attacks played a major role in destroying my teenage years and continues to til this day. I can't offer you some magical cure, though I wish I could. For you, me, all of us. However, I can understand why you would come to a decision like this over it. I'm extremely sorry for all you've had to go through and I feel your pain, as that's also a large portion as to why I'm here as well.

 

[Bct]

Same here. I generally enjoy having interacting with people, but my anxieties (general & social), having past traumas due to being betrayed & ostracized, and also some bad part of my personality often screw myself so they lead me to frustration & want to end it all. Feeling hopeless if I could be fixed except by CTB.

 

[itsamadworld]

Sorry to hear, I can relate. I also have social anxiety, and too much people interaction drains me. Yet being human, I am still a social creature...So it's this torn feeling. Sometimes I sit alone and just cry for hours. I just wish I wasn't born, then I wouldn't have to feel this misery. But it's too late now...

 

[Float On Okay]

What is CTB?

Cease to breath

 

[RayoSinSol]

What is CTB?

CBT means "Cognitive Behavioral Therapy"
CTB means "Cease to breathe" "Cut to Black" or some other abbreviation acting as a euphemism for the process of ending one's own life.

 

[social_anxiety_sucks]

In fact, CTB means "catch the bus"