Venting so, so tired of everything

[emptymiku]

i have nothing.

i fell out of love with someone. being near them used to make me feel happy, but for some reason, i now feel nothing.

my friends make me happy. but i bet they'll be leaving me behind soon.

the future is bleak. i hate thinking about it.

i'll never get recognition for my art. i'll never find anyone to love. i'll never save anyone that needs to be saved. i'll never be truly happy.

i've always been either passively suicidal or painfully terrified of death, but... i really don't want to live much longer. i don't even want to make it past college. even that feels like a stretch.

i hate humanity. i hate everything that's wrong with this world. i hate seeing people sad. i hate myself. i hate my emotions i hate my uselessness i hate my job i hate obligations i hate being alive i hate seeing myself in the mirror i hate breathing

just existing makes me want to cry sometimes. why was i put here? why can i feel, and think, and talk? i can't figure out if i'm not real, or if nobody around me really exists.

i want to die so badly that i can't breathe

 

[truehappiness]

i have nothing.

i fell out of love with someone. being near them used to make me feel happy, but for some reason, i now feel nothing.

my friends make me happy. but i bet they'll be leaving me behind soon.

the future is bleak. i hate thinking about it.

i'll never get recognition for my art. i'll never find anyone to love. i'll never save anyone that needs to be saved. i'll never be truly happy.

i've always been either passively suicidal or painfully terrified of death, but... i really don't want to live much longer. i don't even want to make it past college. even that feels like a stretch.

i hate humanity. i hate everything that's wrong with this world. i hate seeing people sad. i hate myself. i hate my emotions i hate my uselessness i hate my job i hate obligations i hate being alive i hate seeing myself in the mirror i hate breathing

just existing makes me want to cry sometimes. why was i put here? why can i feel, and think, and talk? i can't figure out if i'm not real, or if nobody around me really exists.

i want to die so badly that i can't breathe

I would love to see your art <3
Could you share that with me? If possible.

And hey. I wish I could feel nothing after a relationship ends/fades out :')
For me it is quite the opposite sadly

 

[geepeedee]

this is a beautifully written post. consider yourself recognized.

 

[emptymiku]

I would love to see your art <3
Could you share that with me? If possible.

And hey. I wish I could feel nothing after a relationship ends/fades out :')
For me it is quite the opposite sadly

i probably shouldn't because it could link me to other social medias :(

this is a beautifully written post. consider yourself recognized.

thank you :(

 

[truehappiness]

i probably shouldn't because it could link me to other social medias :(

thank you :(

Ah that is a valid point <3
I am sorry. Just know you are recognized and if you need somebody to talk or, well, die with I am always here ^^

 

[emptymiku]

Ah that is a valid point <3
I am sorry. Just know you are recognized and if you need somebody to talk or, well, die with I am always here ^^

thank you