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tiredandlost
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- Apr 22, 2024
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I feel like even if I wanted to recover, it would take so long that it might not even be worth it and that's assuming I will actually recover. In reality, there is nothing for me to recover from as this life is all I have known, I'm certain my chances of actually living a normal life are very low. My birthday is coming up soon and I have nothing to show for the years I've lived, tho some might say I'm young I feel so inexplicably old, I feel like I am way too old to feel this way. Plus I don't really have the resources to really strive for my recovery and I don't care about myself enough to actually go outside and look for a way to get resources. I see people who have gone through trauma much worse than mine telling their redemption stories and how they are now successful and thriving and that just seems so foreign to me, I must be defective product. I'm really not able at all to deal with the real world, I'm a shut in and it's only getting worse and no one in my personal life cares enough about me to do anything about it so why should I.