Venting So, my cat's dead

[triggerfinger]

my cat died in june of this year.
later on i tried drugs, got drunk, etc. anything to feel not numb, because i've always been punished for my feelings so i just shrink into myself. back into the hole of depression.

now i'm feeling a bit less numb most of the time. but she has always been my reason for living, especially when i was at my lowest. now i thought i was better but this changes things
i was thinking about getting another cat but the idea of being able to kill myself without something holding me back is.. tempting, and freeing, and comforting.

i dont know what to do

 

[R. A.]

so sad. they are precious friends, i have been there.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I'm truly sorry for your loss. I wish her at peace. Please be kind to yourself in this tough time

 

[mirror_mercury]

yeah. i've had five puppies, forced to give them all away because my past wife got jealous of all the attention i gave them.

but attachment is suffering.

well, it's easy for a man to move on.

if you're a woman, use that despair as fuel to create art and music, or something.

i've been working hard at my remote job to distract myself anyways.

money money money

money makes the world go round and round

except, all of my wealth is invested, i rarely touch fluid money myself

and i encourage my staff members to do charity every once in a while

to avoid the guillotine and stuff, if you accumulate too much riches without giving back to society

paying taxes

as an earth elemental, i try to live a humble material life anyways. i only buy cheap stuff, and throw away stuff if i hoard too much

minimalism