Unsure and Useless
Drifting Aimlessly without Roots
- Feb 7, 2023
- 252
For the past few days, I've been dealing with sciatica. (I'm assuming it's sciatica based on how I have a dull pain radiating from my butt to my thigh.) At first, the most inconvenience it provided me was the fact that going down steep hills was painful, and I couldn't get up from bed as easily as I used to. Though, based on the title, it obviously got worse.
I have a very noticeable limp in my right leg because walking is extremely painful, yet laying down is just as painful, if not more so. Shifting from being on my back is a task I have to do very slowly or else I'll be in a world of hurt. (As of typing this, I'm currently stuck laying down on my left side.) I have to sit shifted to the left because any pressure on my right hurts. And I can't go to a doctor due to circumstances.
I'm trying to stick this out because, according to some research, the pain goes away after a few weeks, but it hurts so much.
Living in this body is agonizing. Every movement causes me suffering. I don't want to move.
I have a very noticeable limp in my right leg because walking is extremely painful, yet laying down is just as painful, if not more so. Shifting from being on my back is a task I have to do very slowly or else I'll be in a world of hurt. (As of typing this, I'm currently stuck laying down on my left side.) I have to sit shifted to the left because any pressure on my right hurts. And I can't go to a doctor due to circumstances.
I'm trying to stick this out because, according to some research, the pain goes away after a few weeks, but it hurts so much.
Living in this body is agonizing. Every movement causes me suffering. I don't want to move.