Venting So much loss

[Giraffey]

In the last few years, I have suffered so much loss. My daughter, my grandparents, an uncle, a close friend and my beautiful dog all died, and I lost several close friendships, including my two best friends. I even lost my soulmate and her beautiful kids whom I loved as my own, and with them, my chance at a new beginning.

The grief is too much to even begin to process. I'm just ready to give up.

I hate that I am too weak to fight on through this pain but there is only so much grief a guy can take

 

[Kumachan]

That does sound like way too much... But why do you think you are weak? I can relate to your situation although i havent lost nearly as much, but what I have lost is motivation - my old life is gone and building a new one seems like a chore, im not gonna enjoy it and will always miss what i lost. I dont feel weak tho just the motivation is gone... Do you still have goals or anything to live for?

 

[Giraffey]

That does sound like way too much... But why do you think you are weak? I can relate to your situation although i havent lost nearly as much, but what I have lost is motivation - my old life is gone and building a new one seems like a chore, im not gonna enjoy it and will always miss what i lost. I dont feel weak tho just the motivation is gone... Do you still have goals or anything to live for?

Thank you Kumachan. I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through a similar situation, albeit different circumstances. In my case, I've spent every day of my life since I escaped an abusive ex feeling as though I am cursed, 'marked'. It's led to so much loss and grief whilst having nobody in my life to support me through it. I finally thought that I could escape that, start again and build a new life with someone new, but the curse struck again and destroyed everything.

I feel weak because an optimist would say "if at first, you don't succeed, try and try again", whereas, in reality, everybody has a limit to how much grief and pain they can endure before they break. I feel weak because all throughout my life I've felt strong and stoic and people have always thought of me as such too. But now, I have broken, I have truly broken, and for the very first time in my life, I feel as though I have no way to escape the despair.

I did have goals in my life, ambitions and dreams of happiness, a family, making memories, but they are all unachievable now and what happened recently proved that they always will be.

Sending you hugs and strength, I really hope you find a way out of your stasis.

 

[Pryras]

I can empathize with you on this and while not exactly the same circumstances I feel very similar.

It's like standing in a boxing ring and being punched over and over again without a chance to get up. Time is not on your side and you have no second to recover from the last blow. No time to register or heal, just constant pain over and over again.

Anyone I've ever considered "close to" and emotionally invested in has either left me life through death or abandonment. I understand the pain and I'm sorry you're hurting :(

 

[letmeseethedeath]

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In the last few years, I have suffered so much loss. My daughter, my grandparents, an uncle, a close friend and my beautiful dog all died, and I lost several close friendships, including my two best friends. I even lost my soulmate and her beautiful kids whom I loved as my own, and with them, my chance at a new beginning.

The grief is too much to even begin to process. I'm just ready to give up.

I hate that I am too weak to fight on through this pain but there is only so much grief a guy can take

i feel you.. i lost the love of my life(she is alive) , my grandpa, my grandma, my cousin which was my best friends. i already struggle with my problems and my illness.. i want to ctb but i'm so afraid of fail

 

[Krash1990]

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i feel you.. i lost the love of my life(she is alive) , my grandpa, my grandma, my cousin which was my best friends. i already struggle with my problems and my illness.. i want to ctb but i'm so afraid of fail

The pain of losing your soul mate while they're still alive seems more painful than losing them to death to me...I'm so sorry my friend.