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not real.
- Jun 18, 2021
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yeah. so i try to be empathetic as much as i can towards anyone, even the prolifers (parents). but is really hard to deal with the anger and hate i feel from having been brought in here without choice, from being deprived of the freedom to stop the suffering. it feels like i'm chained on an electrical chair while being forced to feel the pain inside and around me, with no way to stop it. it makes me desperate. i feel so much hate towards them. every second i pass in this existence i feel more and more corrupted. i feel guilty of playing their game. i have been forced but that's not excuse for me to still be here. i try to not be impulsive and think before doing something. because if i don't think, i risk to fail my possibility to exit. i need to calm down but i feel like i want to hurt them.i want to hurt them like they did to me. i feel evil. just like them.
i want to stop all this before i explode. i just need some time
sorry for vent.
thanks ss.
i want to stop all this before i explode. i just need some time
sorry for vent.
thanks ss.
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