meowme0w
Quadeca fan
- Jan 6, 2026
- 33
Does anyone else have so many things that technically could keep them holding on for longer, but they just...don't?
Like, I have so many things I look forwards to. So many things I want to finish. People I don't want to upset with my death. Yet none of it is good enough to actually keep me around?
I'm literally mourning the fact that I'm going to die, but I'm still going to do it. I just don't see any other option. I have no desire to live, even with all these things I like. I want to write a story. I want to keep creating characters and worlds and stories. Just earlier today I worked on a story and it was so fun and i couldn't wait to keep working on it...But I'm going to die. I don't have enough time to finish any of my current projects.
In the past, things like this were enough to keep me going for one more day at a time, but now I just can't wait for it all to be over. It's taking all my strength to not just do it right now and get it over with...The only reason I'm waiting at all is because I don't want ot traumatise my family, so I need to go somewhere else to do it. I want to do so many things, but even all of them combined aren't enough. I don't want anything as much as I want death
Ugghhhh I'm literally gonna spend my last few days just grinding art, because I desperately want to draw and write about these characters and story I've created sighhh can't believe I HAVE to kill myself sighhh
Like, I have so many things I look forwards to. So many things I want to finish. People I don't want to upset with my death. Yet none of it is good enough to actually keep me around?
I'm literally mourning the fact that I'm going to die, but I'm still going to do it. I just don't see any other option. I have no desire to live, even with all these things I like. I want to write a story. I want to keep creating characters and worlds and stories. Just earlier today I worked on a story and it was so fun and i couldn't wait to keep working on it...But I'm going to die. I don't have enough time to finish any of my current projects.
In the past, things like this were enough to keep me going for one more day at a time, but now I just can't wait for it all to be over. It's taking all my strength to not just do it right now and get it over with...The only reason I'm waiting at all is because I don't want ot traumatise my family, so I need to go somewhere else to do it. I want to do so many things, but even all of them combined aren't enough. I don't want anything as much as I want death
Ugghhhh I'm literally gonna spend my last few days just grinding art, because I desperately want to draw and write about these characters and story I've created sighhh can't believe I HAVE to kill myself sighhh
