So many people like me

[ClairyFairy]

I have never been anywhere where people think the same as me. I spend time reading the threads and I just feel like I'm where I should be. Nobody in real life thinks to kill yourself is ok. I have thought about it for so long. I really thought it would be much easier. My body hurts and my feelings hurt. I feel like I'm in such bad situation now that running in front of a car appeals to me. I need to make a better plan that won't fail. I'm so tired though, of everything. People watching me all the time man. I don't make any difference. It doesn't matter if I'm here or not. I feel like my family are torturing me on purpose to punish me

 

[hoffnungstod]

I'm also very glad/ relieved that I found this forum.

 

[WornOutLife]

People here are awesome!
I feel you. Nobody understands me anywhere else the way I'm understood here.
I love posting and sharing stuff with you all.

You rock! I'm glad there's a place in the "world" in which we can relax and talk freely about our problems, life, death, etc.

All in all, that's it! Thank you for existing, my dear SS fellows! :)

 

[Trisolaris]

It is a relief we have this place.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

I'll take this opportunity also too to thank everyone for accepting me here as me, and making it a community so open and understanding to others.

I'm being watched a bit too now, but I guess with covid there's not much we can do anyway. I feel like life and society are punishing me for existing. Do you truly think your family are doing that though?

 

[ClairyFairy]

My family are doing what they think is ok and are just doing what the social worker has told them so I don't wind up in a hospital. I've lost my bottle a little bit though. I thought it'd be easy just to try again and again but I don't think I've got it in me to fail again and upset them all. I hate feeling so sorry for myself but I'm pathetic, I know that much

 

[Deleted member 22624]

My family are doing what they think is ok and are just doing what the social worker has told them so I don't wind up in a hospital. I've lost my bottle a little bit though. I thought it'd be easy just to try again and again but I don't think I've got it in me to fail again and upset them all. I hate feeling so sorry for myself but I'm pathetic, I know that much

You're not pathetic, you're being pushed to near your limit, and biology and society make it as hard as possible. Hmm your situation sounds a lot like mine. My last big fail and that episode did quite a bit of damage, I feel so guilty but am at my limit too