JJ-NOHOPE
Tantalus - all desire, no hope
- Nov 26, 2018
- 119
One of the reasons I am considering CTB is that this year I lost the person I loved more than anything in this world. My grief is inconsolable.
I have other reasons too... Losing my career after 30 years, sexual abuse when I was 12 years old which has impacted my life to this very day. And more.
Yet everyone says I should get over my loss, and how horrible it would be for them if I died.
None of these people are as close to me as I was to the person I lost. Their grief for me wouldn't be 1/100,000 of what I have for my beloved.
Sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. I had to let my beloved go.... They will have to let me go.
That's life. (And death). No one lives forever. Why can't we choose when and how we die?
I have other reasons too... Losing my career after 30 years, sexual abuse when I was 12 years old which has impacted my life to this very day. And more.
Yet everyone says I should get over my loss, and how horrible it would be for them if I died.
None of these people are as close to me as I was to the person I lost. Their grief for me wouldn't be 1/100,000 of what I have for my beloved.
Sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. I had to let my beloved go.... They will have to let me go.
That's life. (And death). No one lives forever. Why can't we choose when and how we die?