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JJ-NOHOPE

JJ-NOHOPE

Tantalus - all desire, no hope
Nov 26, 2018
119
One of the reasons I am considering CTB is that this year I lost the person I loved more than anything in this world. My grief is inconsolable.

I have other reasons too... Losing my career after 30 years, sexual abuse when I was 12 years old which has impacted my life to this very day. And more.

Yet everyone says I should get over my loss, and how horrible it would be for them if I died.

None of these people are as close to me as I was to the person I lost. Their grief for me wouldn't be 1/100,000 of what I have for my beloved.

Sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. I had to let my beloved go.... They will have to let me go.

That's life. (And death). No one lives forever. Why can't we choose when and how we die?
 
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JazzyWolfWhistle

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
347
We can't because it's really hard to do. So you have to find a way to live, unless you can find a working suicide method.
 
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therhydler

therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
One of the reasons I am considering CTB is that this year I lost the person I loved more than anything in this world. My grief is inconsolable.

I have other reasons too... Losing my career after 30 years, sexual abuse when I was 12 years old which has impacted my life to this very day. And more.

Yet everyone says I should get over my loss, and how horrible it would be for them if I died.

None of these people are as close to me as I was to the person I lost. Their grief for me wouldn't be 1/100,000 of what I have for my beloved.

Sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. I had to let my beloved go.... They will have to let me go.

That's life. (And death). No one lives forever. Why can't we choose when and how we die?

I can really relate... I just cannot get over the loss. Plus other things, but this has been the trigger for me. Im sorry you're going through this
 
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