So lonely but in perfect mental health.

[meowcat]

Been trying to decide whether to CTB or not.
Today,I have initiated the plan with a good amount of clarity.
I think I might be ready.
IT will take some time and i will clean up my laptop so nothing cold lead to this site.
Been so lonely for so long and the kind of person i am,I would naturally take action of some kind.
See,Something has to change in life.And if it does'nt then I need to quit overanalysing every freaking thing.
It's time to take action.
The relentless grunt of life cannot keep going on forever.
I don't want to be that 90 year old man who survived everything that happened to him.
Rather take off and be forgotten in a few months.

 

[Lautreamont]

there is no reason for ctb when you are healthy.. thats my opinion

 

[meowcat]

there is no reason for ctb when you are healthy.. thats my opinion

There is reason,that's why I'm planning on it.
Perfect health does not equate perfect circumstances.
We have reasons to CTB.
Reasons like Life has not turned out the way i imagined.

 

[Redt2go]

Been trying to decide whether to CTB or not.
Today,I have initiated the plan with a good amount of clarity.
I think I might be ready.
IT will take some time and i will clean up my laptop so nothing cold lead to this site.
Been so lonely for so long and the kind of person i am,I would naturally take action of some kind.
See,Something has to change in life.And if it does'nt then I need to quit overanalysing every freaking thing.
It's time to take action.
The relentless grunt of life cannot keep going on forever.
I don't want to be that 90 year old man who survived everything that happened to him.
Rather take off and be forgotten in a few months.

How old are you just curious. Also technically being suicidal indicates theres something wrong

 

[meowcat]

Leave the reasons of why

How old are you just curious

About to be 48.I've lived it.Done all kinds of things that most guys have not.
Don't see any happy future.

 

[Redt2go]

Leave the reasons of why

About to be 48.I've lived it.Done all kinds of things that most guys have not.
Don't see any happy future.

Nice

 

[JustAboutDone]

Hi @meowcat I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way :-( I agree with you that perfect health doesn't necessarily mean an ideal life. Is there anything that makes things worthwhile for you at the moment?

Edit: are you feeling a sort of relentless monotony with life or just feel you've done all you had to?

 

[21Neberg]

Hi @meowcat. I've seen you around the forums a bit over the past month. I'm sorry to hear you feel this way, but I think I understand you pretty well. Loneliness is horrible. I hope your method works out, and I'm also quite thankful for you being so considerate as to deleting this site from your browsing history! Good luck man.

 

[therhydler]

there is no reason for ctb when you are healthy.. thats my opinion

Well it's wrong

 

[meowcat]

Hi @meowcat I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way :-( I agree with you that perfect health doesn't necessarily mean an ideal life. Is there anything that makes things worthwhile for you at the moment?

Edit: are you feeling a sort of relentless monotony with life or just feel you've done all you had to?

Neither of those options.Just done.Tired and without hope.

 

[meowcat]

Hi @meowcat. I've seen you around the forums a bit over the past month. I'm sorry to hear you feel this way, but I think I understand you pretty well. Loneliness is horrible. I hope your method works out, and I'm also quite thankful for you being so considerate as to deleting this site from your browsing history! Good luck man.

It will take some time because N is not like ordering Pizza

 

[JustAboutDone]

Neither of those options.Just done.Tired and without hope.

That's so sad. Do you think you might be suffering from depression? I know you said you have good mental health but you seem really low in mood x

 

[meowcat]

That's so sad. Do you think you might be suffering from depression? I know you said you have good mental health but you seem really low in mood x

Who cares depression or no deepressionI love you manThank you for being a great friend.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Who cares depression or no deepressionI love you manThank you for being a great friend.

It's a pleasure. If you are suffering from depression you'll feel sad and lonely. Are you sleeping more or even less than you normally do?

 

[color_me_gone]

Hi Meowcat!
I'm 66, and I know how you feel - lonely.
Have you suffered any heartbreaks recently?
If you would like to chat, please feel free to start a conversation with me.
I will not try to talk you out of ctb, because I feel that way myself.
But a lot of times it just helps to get it off your chest.
I'm here to listen. I can share my experiences as well.
I you don't want to chat, that's ok, cause I know it is hard when ur hurtin.
Just hopin I could help you feel less lonely.
Take care, Jerry

 

[meowcat]

It's a pleasure. If you are suffering from depression you'll feel sad and lonely. Are you sleeping more or even less than you normally do?

I sleep because of all the booze and sleep meds.It's the only way i can sleep.

 

[meowcat]

Hi Meowcat!
I'm 66, and I know how you feel - lonely.
Have you suffered any heartbreaks recently?
If you would like to chat, please feel free to start a conversation with me.
I will not try to talk you out of ctb, because I feel that way myself.
But a lot of times it just helps to get it off your chest.
I'm here to listen. I can share my experiences as well.
I you don't want to chat, that's ok, cause I know it is hard when ur hurtin.
Just hopin I could help you feel less lonely.
Take care, Jerry

Thanks Jerry..When it's time to go it's time to go

 

[color_me_gone]

Thanks Jerry..When it's time to go it's time to go

We certainly respect that here, we see it often.

 

[meowcat]

We certainly respect that here, we see it often.

Hi @meowcat. I've seen you around the forums a bit over the past month. I'm sorry to hear you feel this way, but I think I understand you pretty well. Loneliness is horrible. I hope your method works out, and I'm also quite thankful for you being so considerate as to deleting this site from your browsing history! Good luck man.

thanks dude.It is not done yet.it's far from being done.It is only a step forward.

 

[JustAboutDone]

I sleep because of all the booze and sleep meds.It's the only way i can sleep.

I'm sorry, you must be so drained from that x

 

[JustAboutDone]

I sleep because of all the booze and sleep meds.It's the only way i can sleep.

I hope you stay with us here meowcat and feel supported x