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rokonie
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- Jun 3, 2024
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This is kind of a rhetorical question and not really looking for real advice on how to build a resume and shit. I'm trying to get started on updating my outdated resume and shit (2 months late because of extreme anxiety, depression, and self harming coping mechanisms exhausting me out).
But does anyone just feel like they are absolutely incapable of even finding a job, let alone hold a steady career? I can't get out of bed to boil eggs let alone function at a fucking job. Maybe there will be a dead-end retail position that would take me in but that would be a pretty low quality of life wouldn't it.
People try to encourage living because theres "so much to live for" and "people care about you" but tbh idfc about having friends and they don't motivate me to want to live. I need financial security first, social fulfilment later. I don't want to live in a world where i have to be a rat running my feet to the ground on a wheel just to put a roof over my head. Well-paying cushy jobs are for people who have the passion to pursue higher degrees, the energy to network, and the confidence to sell themselves.
How is being trapped to live a shitty life constantly threatened by eviction/starvation/medical bills/etc. better than death? For me, SI is the only thing that is pushing me to tough it out but im exhausted.
But does anyone just feel like they are absolutely incapable of even finding a job, let alone hold a steady career? I can't get out of bed to boil eggs let alone function at a fucking job. Maybe there will be a dead-end retail position that would take me in but that would be a pretty low quality of life wouldn't it.
People try to encourage living because theres "so much to live for" and "people care about you" but tbh idfc about having friends and they don't motivate me to want to live. I need financial security first, social fulfilment later. I don't want to live in a world where i have to be a rat running my feet to the ground on a wheel just to put a roof over my head. Well-paying cushy jobs are for people who have the passion to pursue higher degrees, the energy to network, and the confidence to sell themselves.
How is being trapped to live a shitty life constantly threatened by eviction/starvation/medical bills/etc. better than death? For me, SI is the only thing that is pushing me to tough it out but im exhausted.