Venting so good at faking it it makes me upset

[comeoutandhauntme]

i've vented abt this on here before but i'm just so good at faking being happy and okay to everyone that it almost makes me mad lmao, like some secret awful part of me just wishes someone would somehow see past me and realize i'm not okay. but then again i purposely put up so many walls to make sure that doesn't happen, and any time someone DOES check on me or wonder if im okay, i lie straight through my teeth and say that i'm fine. so ig idek what i want LMAO