Honestly, I just don't know what to do anymore. As the months, years go by, I am becoming desperate for a long-term solution. I have no purpose on this world, and of course everyone goes around telling others you are special and you got this, that about yourself. 'Don't give up'. I don't blame those who support one and another, it's what this world is intended to be - a kind-hearted, gentle community. On the other hand, there's people who want to give up, like myself. Why you may ask? A lot, a flurry of reasons. Let me just cut it short - I do not belong in this society and I believe in the whole prospect of peace, just like many others on this forum. In general, there is no point helping people like me when our minds are so fixated on the prospect of peace, which some people in this world fail to understand. We are required to be born, have an alright infant-life, acquire an education, and recieve a job, then die. That is the way I put it logically. I just do not see the point of carrying on if we just don't want to. Yet, we are forced to stay when we fail, fail, a method, human impulse. We are put on this planet to work for ourselves and society, and join the congregration of society who fight to pay bills and taxes. We live to suffer in so many ways, mentally and physically. For years, I have dreamt, of simply closing my eyes and ctb. I have spent, so much time researching only to fail when it does not work as intended. You would think I could find a quick solution and do it within a few weeks, yet no. I am not allowed to open my own packaging, my parent, opens everything, I am limited on materials. Everybody else has the luxary of having a rope, high anchor points and chemicals. With me, there is barely any hope to ctb. With me, I believe in easy peace, I do not want to do carry out a method which is incredibly painful because it would be incredibly easy for my body and my impulses to ruin it for me. I just want something which will work in 1 or 2 minutes. Oh, it gives me goosebumps when I think about it: it is excitement. I cannot wait. That is how passionate I am about peace. I am hoping someone here can give me a manual way to do it, something which can work in 2 minutes using ordinary bedroom materials. Something short, something really simple. I have materials such as: a usb cable and bathrobe belt. That's about it sadly. I don't know what to do but I hope from this post, you can clearly see my eagerness for a way out.
Please tell me how to give up. It would really be helpful. I really wish I could live on my own but since I've had problems at school I have had to study for my gcses like 3 years later than I was supposed to be.
Please tell me how to give up. It would really be helpful. I really wish I could live on my own but since I've had problems at school I have had to study for my gcses like 3 years later than I was supposed to be.
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