So bored I'm stripping, need a distraction

[Ghastly]

Does anyone else, when feeling beyond suicidal (silent, apathetic, no energy to even kill myself lol) start doing risky things?

I started stripping last year, not because I needed the money but because I was so fucking bored. I need something like that or I will just rot away. I quit a bit ago but am going to start again in August. I'm so fucking borrred and lonely lol, stripping solves both!

 

[Alchemist]

I don't really have anything to do nor the energy to do it. Nowadays I just stay in my room except when working. Still, that sounds like a good idea for those who have the right genes for it.

 

[k75]

Oh yes, I do.

Lately, I've lapsed into such a complete state of anhedonia, I can barely even feel anything at all. I start seeking out rough anonymous sex, mostly. I know it's unhealthy and risky, but I crave it because it's pretty much the last thing I can still feel. I'm scared of what will happen when I even lose that feeling.

 

[Joannf]

Oh yes, I do.

Lately, I've lapsed into such a complete state of anhedonia, I can barely even feel anything at all. I start seeking out rough anonymous sex, mostly. I know it's unhealthy and risky, but I crave it because it's pretty much the last thing I can still feel. I'm scared of what will happen when I even lose that feeling.

Maybe there's a general trend towards boredom-sexuality, an overall sexualization of society ? It can be seen everywhere. Those who don't indulge in Climate Change soothsaying, seem to have sexual 'liberation' as their major issue - what could be more important than that, huh ?
I'm getting the impression that our entire society is basically suicidal. People here are only the tip of a meting iceberg.

 

[h0wd1rtygurlsST4Yc1n]

i've totally thought about escorting. not because i need the money just because i don't give a fuck and it really does seem like men are that stupid that you can manipulate them in those types of ways. it makes me feel sick and sad....but shit other girls are doing it. i mean living life more dangerously can be fun. i'm not at rock bottom yet. but when i get there. misery loves company......

 

[BeenDoneForSoLong]

Yea I've been both risky and kind of fucking mean. I started matching with girls on tinder and sexting hardcore with basically all of them.
For some reason it gives me more of a rush than the real thing... And it means I don't have to actually get into any meaningful relationship when I plan on fucking dying at some point in the near future... I'm effectively leading on multiple girls and it DOES make me feel like a scumbag ... However when all your previous meaningful relationships came down because of mountains of bullshit. It becomes hard to remain a good person in that regard.