Venting So bizzare

[Mayfil]

I am at my last family gathering as I plan to ctb in 9 days and it is surreal. Listening to everyone talk about their lives and problems knowing they are beyond irrelevant as I will be dead very soon. I only came to get some form of peace of mind but really, I don't even care anymore... least the booze is free and plenty

 

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Right?
My mom is cheerfully talking about life like everything is fine and meanwhile I'm wondering if the wooden beam on the attic will hold my weight when I hang myself from it... life feels like a bad joke.

 

[Mayfil]

Right?
My mom is cheerfully talking about life like everything is fine and meanwhile I'm wondering if the wooden beam on the attic will hold my weight when I hang myself from it... life feels like a bad joke.

Shits fucked but i can get a good laugh out of a response like that

 

[RM5998]

Right?
My mom is cheerfully talking about life like everything is fine and meanwhile I'm wondering if the wooden beam on the attic will hold my weight when I hang myself from it... life feels like a bad joke.

Roughly the same, I hear people talking about future jobs and studying abroad, and all I can think of is whether I can ever do partial suspension or will I have to open my arteries. (Hey, at least the sheets, the blanket and the mattress are already red.)