SN starter guide.

[Melkus2020]

I'm planning to finish my life by this week. I had tried to hang myself but failed and started bleeding out of my mouth. So I had to go to the hospital and admit what I had done. It is very unfortunate that I couldn't go through with my suicide attempt. I had gone to therapy at Navos but I don't think I can wait a week. I just want to end this life asap. My body is cold and limp no matter how much I try to heat myself up. I haven't left my room in years. I can't sleep well and I am completely like a fish out of water when I walk or do normal tasks. I am asking for a simple way for me to CTB using SN. I don't want to live another day. Excuse me for my very simplistic tale that lacks any substance or backstory. I just don't have anything to really tell you like a job or a girlfriend or anything that resembles a fulfilled independent life. Because I never actually lived a life. I existed too long on the back of my parent without much purpose. I'm 20 btw.

 

[one4all]

Well if you are inquiring about different methods of CTB.... haved you looked at the Resource Compilation Guide?

 

[randomz]

I'm planning to finish my life by this week. I had tried to hang myself but failed and started bleeding out of my mouth. So I had to go to the hospital and admit what I had done. It is very unfortunate that I couldn't go through with my suicide attempt. I had gone to therapy at Navos but I don't think I can wait a week. I just want to end this life asap. My body is cold and limp no matter how much I try to heat myself up. I haven't left my room in years. I can't sleep well and I am completely like a fish out of water when I walk or do normal tasks. I am asking for a simple way for me to CTB using SN. I don't want to live another day. Excuse me for my very simplistic tale that lacks any substance or backstory. I just don't have anything to really tell you like a job or a girlfriend or anything that resembles a fulfilled independent life. Because I never actually lived a life. I existed too long on the back of my parent without much purpose. I'm 20 btw.

I am sorry you feel that way and for everything that made your life so painful. But at 20 years old, life can still offer you a lot of great emotions and feelings. I believe, there is still a lot you can do to make yourself feel better. Anyway I think you should exhaust all options for getting better before taking the hard decision to CTB.
I hope things turn out great for you.

 

[faust]

I am so sorry life has no sense to you and you are feeling odd in this world.
Of course, you can do a research on methods so that you could know how you would prefer to leave us.
The thing is that if you decide to change your situation, you will have to dig deeper and try many things.
Are there any activities you would be interested in?
Because there is one difference between "I don't want to live" and "I don't want to live such a life".
These two aspects differ but have a common spot.
Have you ever thought which life would you like to live or would you prefer simply to die?

 

[Melkus2020]

Well if you are inquiring about different methods of CTB.... haved you looked at the Resource Compilation Guide?

SN is my preferred method for me. I don't have the guts for even a sec of pain.

I am sorry you feel that way and for everything that made your life so painful. But at 20 years old, life can still offer you a lot of great emotions and feelings. I believe, there is still a lot you can do to make yourself feel better. Anyway I think you should exhaust all options for getting better before taking the hard decision to CTB.
I hope things turn out great for you.

ah man I feel bad when I hear beautiful optimism from peopl

I am so sorry life has no sense to you and you are feeling odd in this world.
Of course, you can do a research on methods so that you could know how you would prefer to leave us.
The thing is that if you decide to change your situation, you will have to dig deeper and try many things.
Are there any activities you would be interested in?
Because there is one difference between "I don't want to live" and "I don't want to live such a life".
These two aspects differ but have a common spot.
Have you ever thought which life would you like to live or would you prefer simply to die?

i exhausted all my energy. I tried to adjust to this life but it's just too much for me. I can't take it anymore. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I figured that I'm not built to survive in the 21st century. I'm just letting nature take its course.

 

[one4all]

SN is my preferred method for me. I don't have the guts for even a sec of pain.

According to accounts. It is more of a DISCOMFORT than PAIN.

 

[Lostandfound7]

It breaks my heart to see u considering this option at such a tender age. U said u have never lived a "fulfilled independent life", but at 20, that's ok.. Have u considered all other options (school, job) before taking this route? I'm sorry n don't mean to minimize ur pain at all, I'm simply trying to ensure u have tried other options first..plz reconsider this decision for right now, sweetie..

 

[Melkus2020]

According to accounts. It is more of a DISCOMFORT than PAIN.

I pray that's the case. I just want something to kill me with myself putting in no extra effort. I just want to die a quick death.

 

[one4all]

I pray that's the case. I just want something to kill me with myself putting in no extra effort. I just want to die a quick death.

Only several methods of that type. But again..nothing is 100%

 

[OldGod]

I'm planning to finish my life by this week. I had tried to hang myself but failed and started bleeding out of my mouth. So I had to go to the hospital and admit what I had done. It is very unfortunate that I couldn't go through with my suicide attempt. I had gone to therapy at Navos but I don't think I can wait a week. I just want to end this life asap. My body is cold and limp no matter how much I try to heat myself up. I haven't left my room in years. I can't sleep well and I am completely like a fish out of water when I walk or do normal tasks. I am asking for a simple way for me to CTB using SN. I don't want to live another day. Excuse me for my very simplistic tale that lacks any substance or backstory. I just don't have anything to really tell you like a job or a girlfriend or anything that resembles a fulfilled independent life. Because I never actually lived a life. I existed too long on the back of my parent without much purpose. I'm 20 btw.

Man, I feel you 100%. I've wanted to kill myself nearly all my life. I'm not trying to tell you what to do but I would seriously consider waiting a couple more years on this. Your twenties, even if you're depressed and go through lots of trauma, are some of the most exciting years of your life. When you hit 21 so many social avenues open up. Seriously. Think about it at least. God my twenties have been a blast. You could experience the same. You never know.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Man, I feel you 100%. I've wanted to kill myself nearly all my life. I'm not trying to tell you what to do but I would seriously consider waiting a couple more years on this. Your twenties, even if you're depressed and go through lots of trauma, are some of the most exciting years of your life. When you hit 21 so many social avenues open up. Seriously. Think about it at least. God my twenties have been a blast. You could experience the same. You never know.

THIS...

 

[Melkus2020]

Man, I feel you 100%. I've wanted to kill myself nearly all my life. I'm not trying to tell you what to do but I would seriously consider waiting a couple more years on this. Your twenties, even if you're depressed and go through lots of trauma, are some of the most exciting years of your life. When you hit 21 so many social avenues open up. Seriously. Think about it at least. God my twenties have been a blast. You could experience the same. You never know.

I don't really have any interest in life anymore. All those synapse in my brain are long gone. Every day is a painful reminder of my failures and I see everything as an humiliation to me. I would be doing the world a favor by X myself out. World would be a brighter place.

 

[OldGod]

THIS...

I'm 25 now. If I was successful when I was 19... God, the things I would've missed. A lot of it was self destruction but god damn was it a blast. It's a fuckin' ride, dude. I wouldn't expose all the crazy shit I got into here in public but if this guy or anyone his age wanted to know in a PM then I'm sure they would change their mind VERY quickly lmao

I don't really have any interest in life anymore. All those synapse in my brain are long gone. Every day is a painful reminder of my failures and I see everything as an humiliation to me. I would be doing the world a favor by X myself out. World would be a brighter place.

I'm not sure what's going on in your life, you're free to message me about it though. I got time. But yeah, the world is a fucked up place. If you got nothing to lose then just fuel the fire, go down in a blaze of glory and have some fun. I can't stress it enough- turning 21 is something even the most suicidal of young adults should experience at least for a little while.

 

[Melkus2020]

Sorry bro. I don't want to make anyone feel bad for me. I had already accepted my fate for awhile now, and I have no regrets. I have made my decision to be at peace.

 

[sangfroid]

not everyone's life is the same though. i tried to ctb when i was 23 and i wish i'd been successful because nothing since then has been worth living for. I think deep down you know if there's hope or not and i wish anyone who actually has the chance of a decent life could get there, but for some of us there is no point (not that i am saying this about you melkus, i don't know you obviously)

 

[OldGod]

Sorry bro. I don't want to make anyone feel bad for me. I had already accepted my fate for awhile now, and I have no regrets. I have made my decision to be at peace.

Don't worry, you're not making anyone feel bad for you. People just naturally have compassion. As suicidal as I am myself, it does make me sad to see someone want to go at such a young age. Right before one of the biggest milestones of their life. I hope you know what you're doing man. I seriously wish you the best of luck no matter what happens.

not everyone's life is the same though. i tried to ctb when i was 23 and i wish i'd been successful because nothing since then has been worth living for. I think deep down you know if there's hope or not and i wish anyone who actually has the chance of a decent life could get there, but for some of us there is no point.

I'm a firm believer that life has no meaning and it's all just a big game, which means I take more chances and live it up as much as possible. There's certainly not hope for me but I definitely don't regret living the past five years of my life. I had things happen in my twenties that I never would've imagined likely to happen to me. Like I'm talking fantasies that were so far fetched, when they actually happened I thought I was dreaming. Your depression makes you think good things can't happen. Good things can most definitely happen, maybe they don't mean anything in the end but they're still quite enjoyable on a euphoric level. In my experience, anyway.

 

[sangfroid]

I'm glad you don't regret it and I hope that you can find some way to continue that for as long as possible. maybe there is hope if you have found some value in the past five years. I went through my 20s knowing deep down that nothing good could happen for me, sometimes you just know.

Melkus I don't think anyone is a complete failure already at your age and maybe you can change things around if you consider all your options. I would be a hypocrite to tell you what to do but I hope you might reconsider your options for a litle while longer at least.

 

[Melkus2020]

I'm glad you don't regret it and I hope that you can find some way to continue that for as long as possible. maybe there is hope if you have found some value in the past five years. I went through my 20s knowing deep down that nothing good could happen for me, sometimes you just know.

Melkus I don't think anyone is a complete failure already at your age and maybe you can change things around if you consider all your options. I would be a hypocrite to tell you what to do but I hope you might reconsider your options for a litle while longer at least.

Kind words brother. I wish I was optimistic. But I'm too much of a coward to pursue other options in life.