I mean this very nicely, but people are not going to send you a source (
it is against the site rules, and I know you the site rules based on this post here [
1] where you got mad at the mods for deleting a post of yours against site rules and then trying to call out one our amazing members suggesting something that really did not need to be speculated about [
1]). While length of time can help credibility, treating others kindly also goes a long way for the credibility factor too and possibly more importantly so. I am so sorry things are this painful for you and that you are desperate, I can understand how frustrating that must be.
Folks do not share sources not to be difficult or personal against you, nor is gatekeeping but for safety...and also per site rules. If you follow the breadcrumbs you will find what you seek though.
I am truly sorry your other methods did not work out, that must be very frustrating. VSED [
1][
2], train [
3], cutting [
4], jumping [
5][
6], caffeine [
7], Advil [
8] shotgun [
9] but it also seems you may have known where to get SN due to these posts [
10][
11]
including this one too where someone said they were PMing you about it [
12]. This question being asked may actually hurt your credibility given you seem to already know or have SN option so by asking for
another source (and wanting people to break the site rules by providing) may come across as suspicious to others. It is not just about account duration here that matters, please understand this. I truly don't mean this negatively as I am sure you an awesome person. I am also not accusing you of anything FYI, I fully understand how difficult things might be, but consider how it appears to others and another reason why people would want to safeguard sources.
Please do not take it personal if people follow the site rules and do not chime on this, especially when it sounded like you already had source information from others. If you don't have one somehow still, then just follow the breadcumbs to find the source on your own two feet. That is my best suggestion at this point.
With whatever you decide, I hope you find everything you are looking for.