SN or/and N in U.S.?

[Bunni'sLullaby]

I finally have access to DMing. I'm sure this has been posted elsewhere, but most sources are provided via personal messaging. I saw a recent article of a successful suicide via SN & she ordered SN from Amazon (mailed from US to UK). Surely, someone knows something or knows a reliable source for SN or N? Maybe even both together?? I have wanted to die for a long time, but I can't get past SI or guilt yet. I think finding a way that isn't violent (i.e., gunshot, because the only other option I can plan for is getting a .357 w/ hollow points--thanks, America) would help with SI or the part of guilt involving someone finding me. I know how seeing someone you love in a gruesome scene never leaves you. Can anyone comment or DM suggestions? I feel like I'm practically begging on my knees at this point. I want the comfort of knowing I actually have an out.

 

[Pangolin]

I would also like this info, I don't have dms just yet tho unfortunately. Working on it

 

[Abyssal]

Yeah you aren't gonna get N, give up on that one

 

[jujuklam]

Yeah you aren't gonna get N, give up on that one

Certainly not within American borders, no

 

[Pangolin]

I've got dms now!