SN just arrived... want to go tonight

[wreckedship]

its quite yellowish. this was the only one i could find for sale. i havent done any tests. i dont have any ae or amtacids, but i do have a few quetiapine 25mgs, and i just took 4. i dont take it regularly. I haven't eaten for about 12 hours but will wait a bit i think.

im a little scared, but i cant go on. i just hope it isnt painful or distressing.

 

[hatelife]

Aww you sweet soul, i wish i could hug you dear, please talk to us, i wish you dont do it, my advice from doctors after my last suicide attempt was count the abc backwards when it gets tough to distract from the pain inside of suicide thoughts n plans

 

[wreckedship]

i just dont want to keep on going

thankyou, though

 

[hatelife]

we all hug you

 

[mini_weeny]

Seems risky without testing ?

Aww you sweet soul, i wish i could hug you dear, please talk to us, i wish you dont do it, my advice from doctors after my last suicide attempt was count the abc backwards when it gets tough to distract from the pain inside of suicide thoughts n plans

Why did u fail??

 

[hatelife]

What I have learned about death so far its so tricky and life is much more I think stranger than fiction, my last attempt I was so sure to die of yet here I still am, concioussnes is a weird thing, I dont even know if there is such thing as death anymore...

 

[prepetuallyperplexed]

its quite yellowish. this was the only one i could find for sale. i havent done any tests. i dont have any ae or amtacids, but i do have a few quetiapine 25mgs, and i just took 4. i dont take it regularly. I haven't eaten for about 12 hours but will wait a bit i think.

im a little scared, but i cant go on. i just hope it isnt painful or distressing.
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I'm so sorry you are going through this. I wish I could hug you.

 

[hatelife]

When I have it so bad I sometimes drink alcohol to ease my pain inside or comfort eat, I also sleep to not feel pain of this reality, if u have it bad try this maybe, hugs to you dear write here please, always give it another day like, tomorrow you might feel different, sometimes its nice to think like as if you take it one day at atime and not think too much of the future.

 

[idontknow15]

its quite yellowish. this was the only one i could find for sale. i havent done any tests. i dont have any ae or amtacids, but i do have a few quetiapine 25mgs, and i just took 4. i dont take it regularly. I haven't eaten for about 12 hours but will wait a bit i think.

im a little scared, but i cant go on. i just hope it isnt painful or distressing.
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I'm new here but I really hope you don't do it. There's so much in this life to live for. For the past few days, I have been waiting for my account to be accepted by the admins so I haven't been able to post but I've been reading almost everything. My ex told me that she never loved me a couple of days ago, and honestly I have never felt so low. I was thinking about just jumping out of my window which is 2 storeys high but head first, to cause an instant death. But things do get better man. You just have to flick that switch in your head. I know that it's so hard and it could even get harder, so if you really don't want to live then that's fine aswell. But, there is so much to live for. If you died, then how could you ever enjoy ice cream again? Or Dr. Pepper, or tacos, or hot cheetos, or that funny film that you can watch over and over again, or your favourite video game, once you are gone you're gone and you can never experience these again man. You know you're life better than me, but whatever has went wrong do you really think that it can't get any better? I mean, if you're this low already then don't you think that the only direction is up from now?

You know yourself better than me but this would be my advice to you, get in the gym, get some more tattoos, get a new haircut, make yourself more confident, message that girl/boy that you like, and go out there and smash it. Go and study if you really want, go and see the world. And after you've done all of that and you still really want to CTB then you've done everything you can. Depression is a bitch, but there's only one way out and that's you man. There's no anti depressant or therapist in the world that can help you. I'm here if you need to chat though, sometimes you just need to talk about it.

 

[hatelife]

Seems risky without testing ?

Why did u fail??

I dont know why, it was my third attempt, I ingested 11-14 grams amitriptyline, did it all like in the doctors book as he said and woke up in hospital after i was 10 days in coma, poison was all in my entire body, i had layed down in bed after i ingested ready to die n woke up there after apparantly i had both last 2 times woken up and how i did this i dont know, called 911 on my own and then in ambulance car started to seizure.

 

[mini_weeny]

its quite yellowish. this was the only one i could find for sale. i havent done any tests. i dont have any ae or amtacids, but i do have a few quetiapine 25mgs, and i just took 4. i dont take it regularly. I haven't eaten for about 12 hours but will wait a bit i think.

im a little scared, but i cant go on. i just hope it isnt painful or distressing.
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It doesn't say in the label who made it, it could be anything :( there's so much counterfeit stuff these days

 

[RedHarlequin]

I am sorry life has brought you to this.. I wish it had been kinder to both of us and to others on this forum. I wish you a peaceful transition and no more pain.
It can be sad seeing people leaving this world but we never know what pain they have been through so it feels inhumane to ask others to stay longer. Maybe every day is torture as it is for me. You know what is right for you and I wish you total peace with whatever you may choose.

 

[it's_all_a_game]

I'm new here but I really hope you don't do it. There's so much in this life to live for.

No offense, but you sound like a pro-lifer...

 

[idontknow15]

No offense, but you sound like a pro-lifer...

sorry man, I just know the pain this person is going through.

 

[fred farkle]

wreckedship,I know to a certain extent how you feel. i would hope you take some time and plan it out more carefully. do a lot of reading. thats what im doing.
btw i am off tomorrow thank God!! all day i thought of ctb. i will sleeep a lot and try to forget shit for a while.
sending out love vibes to all my SS niggaz!!!

 

[wreckedship]

i just drank my first glass. fingers crossed it is simple and stuff. light headed so im sitting on the floor

 

[fred farkle]

whoa youre really doing it. how do you feel?

 

[BrokenArrow]

Any update on this? Did he PM anyone?

Sounds like he may have caught the bus successfully...

 

[BandAddict]

Wishing you a peaceful journey.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

Wish you a safe and sound travel.

 

[Taos]

I dont know why, it was my third attempt, I ingested 11-14 grams amitriptyline, did it all like in the doctors book as he said and woke up in hospital after i was 10 days in coma, poison was all in my entire body, i had layed down in bed after i ingested ready to die n woke up there after apparantly i had both last 2 times woken up and how i did this i dont know, called 911 on my own and then in ambulance car started to seizure.

That's insane. How did you consume? Dissolve and drink? Are you sure you consumed the full amount? Did you vomit? How much do you weigh? (although my understanding that is a fatal amount)

 

[Meditation guide]

That's insane. How did you consume? Dissolve and drink? Are you sure you consumed the full amount? Did you vomit? How much do you weigh? (although my understanding that is a fatal amount)

He said he drank SN. That was four days ago. He is probably gone. May he rest in peace.

 

[Taos]

He said he drank SN. That was four days ago. He is probably gone. May he rest in peace.

Is four days a guess? Cos it says he was online Friday.

 

[RegretedFeeling]

See you on the flip side,

 

[mini_weeny]

Is four days a guess? Cos it says he was online Friday.

That Sn looked too generic, with no manufacturer in the label or anything.

 

[Taos]

That Sn looked too generic, with no manufacturer in the label or anything.

I see what's happened lol. I replied to 'hatelife' a girl (?) in the thread, not 'wreckedship' who took the SN.

 

[hatelife]

That's insane. How did you consume? Dissolve and drink? Are you sure you consumed the full amount? Did you vomit? How much do you weigh? (although my understanding that is a fatal amount)

I ordered the pills online and drank in pillform with alcohol drink, I am overweight/fat these days unfortunatley so thats why I took many and just to add some more grams just in case to make sure I die.
I did not vomit, I had seizures because of it both 2 times that I tried that kind of method.

 

[Taos]

I ordered the pills online and drank in pillform with alcohol drink, I am overweight/fat these days unfortunatley so thats why I took many and just to add some more grams just in case to make sure I die.
I did not vomit, I had seizures because of it both 2 times that I tried that kind of method.

Do you have any idea how soon after ingestion you rang for an ambulance? Within an hour?

 

[hatelife]

Do you have any idea how soon after ingestion you rang for an ambulance? Within an hour?

Yes like 5-6 hours later after my mom said that, but the first time I tried it I seizured like moments after maybe, but 2 time my mom said I woke her up n told her I had ingested them, then I told her to go to sleep and I too went and fell asleep and then 5 hours later she woke me up and then I guess I called them after she said I have said I felt anxious n dizzy, like 20minutes later I had seizure in ambulance car they said.

 

[Taos]

Yes like 5-6 hours later after my mom said that, but the first time I tried it I seizured like moments after maybe, but 2 time my mom said I woke her up n told her I had ingested them, then I told her to go to sleep and I too went and fell asleep and then 5 hours later she woke me up and then I guess I called them after she said I have said I felt anxious n dizzy, like 20minutes later I had seizure in ambulance car they said.

Am I reading this correctly, about 5 hours after ingestion you received medical intervention?