6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
273
I've been a silent observer of SS for a while now but due to recent changes in circumstances, ie wanting to CTB, I've noticed a rapid increase in the number of people choosing this method, clearly due to the simplicity of it but I'm just curious as to the rather big influx of people wanting to CTB? What's your story?

I got my Meto through the mail today, took 5 days to come and now it's starting to become a reality, just a waiting game.
 

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AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
149
Came to this forum looking for information on using an inert gas with an exit bag. Chose that method as I have a low pain tolerance and couldn't bring myself to hang etc.

Was still worried about my SI kicking in with a bag over my head and came across the SN threads, read the mega thread and Stan's guide and since it has been my plan A.

I think because it is so simple and peaceful, it's a simple drink and all you really need to worry about is not vomiting, or panicking and calling for help.

Now I'm just patiently waiting for my SN to arrive. I have everything else that I need. I'm planning to ctb in around 2 weeks time.
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
You can read my story by clicking the link in my sig. It's a popular CTB method here because it's so simple, and the materials are easy to acquire.
 
6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
273
Came to this forum looking for information on using an inert gas with an exit bag. Chose that method as I have a low pain tolerance and couldn't bring myself to hang etc.

Was still worried about my SI kicking in with a bag over my head and came across the SN threads, read the mega thread and Stan's guide and since it has been my plan A.

I think because it is so simple and peaceful, it's a simple drink and all you really need to worry about is not vomiting, or panicking and calling for help.

Now I'm just patiently waiting for my SN to arrive. I have everything else that I need. I'm planning to ctb in around 2 weeks time.
Came to this forum looking for information on using an inert gas with an exit bag. Chose that method as I have a low pain tolerance and couldn't bring myself to hang etc.

Was still worried about my SI kicking in with a bag over my head and came across the SN threads, read the mega thread and Stan's guide and since it has been my plan A.

I think because it is so simple and peaceful, it's a simple drink and all you really need to worry about is not vomiting, or panicking and calling for help.

Now I'm just patiently waiting for my SN to arrive. I have everything else that I need. I'm planning to ctb in around 2 weeks time.
I can relate deeply to this, I was heavily relying on CO method with disposable bbq's, however SN seems more foolproof, I'm just a bit confused because I feel no worry about it, it's like I genuinely feel as though I'm ready for this & can continue my life like normal up until that point, which ironically should be about 2 weeks from now like yourself, pray everything goes smooth and well for you
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
It's simple to understand and the ingredients are relatively easy to aquire. I started following the forum a couple months ago, did all the research, and got all the stuff from eBay. I tried and failed with other methods including exit bag.

It feels quite good to have a go-to method with instructions. It lessens my anxiety somewhat.
 
CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
Oh, and not to mention that the materials are all perfectly legal to acquire, too.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

Wreck-it-Riley

My demon will see me undone
Oct 20, 2019
269
I am so happy i found this because honestly, I have been certain i would end my own life for so long. But only since coming here do i feel like it wont be a violent and horrible affair full of fear and suffering. now i can go silently into the darkness.
 
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6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
273
It's simple to understand and the ingredients are relatively easy to aquire. I started following the forum a couple months ago, did all the research, and got all the stuff from eBay. I tried and failed with other methods including exit bag.

It feels quite good to have a go-to method with instructions. It lessens my anxiety somewhat.
Yeah I totally get that, it just feels like the safe option, sort of the 'get out of jail free' card even though it's not a 100% method but it just has that feel to it, I'm fairly eager to get it done
I am so happy i found this because honestly, I have been certain i would end my own life for so long. But only since coming here do i feel like it wont be a violent and horrible affair full of fear and suffering. now i can go silently into the darkness.
Nothing worse, I tried to CTB when I first joined this forum, by partial hanging, 3 or 4 attempts, a lot of tears and regret and pure fear alone stopping me from being able to fulfill it, not with SN, I know I will go with no struggle
 
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Daniela

Specialist
Feb 23, 2019
303
Yeah when the numbers really swell up this forum is going to be in big trouble. I hope the moderators find a way to hide it from search engines, including duckduckgo.
 
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6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
273
Yeah when the numbers really swell up this forum is going to be in big trouble. I hope the moderators find a way to hide it from search engines, including duckduckgo.
t's quite scary when you think about it, I'm fairly certain the forum itself has gained popularity as well, but like someone posted the other day, their has been a hell of a lot of people CTB with SN over the past few days. Just can't understand where all this popularity has came from
 
CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
Yeah when the numbers really swell up this forum is going to be in big trouble. I hope the moderators find a way to hide it from search engines, including duckduckgo.
Funny that you mention that, because DDG is how I found SS in the first place. I was searching for CTB methods online using Tor, and I eventually stumbled upon SS. I didn't use Google because I don't want ANYONE tracking my browsing history on suicide methods, as unlikely as that might seem.
 
6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
273
Funny that you mention that, because DDG is how I found SS in the first place. I was searching for CTB methods online using Tor, and I eventually stumbled upon SS. I didn't use Google because I don't want ANYONE tracking my browsing history on suicide methods, as unlikely as that might seem.
I think I started off on Lostallhope and then ended up here somehow, it was all a blur really but I remember the night I spent hours and hours drinking and looking through the wikis and megathreads for the best way, SN hadn't even crossed my mind at that point
 
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CrushedHopes

CrushedHopes

Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
Nov 3, 2019
471
I think I started off on Lostallhope and then ended up here somehow, it was all a blur really but I remember the night I spent hours and hours drinking and looking through the wikis and megathreads for the best way, SN hadn't even crossed my mind at that point
I was looking for painless CTB methods that I could not only afford, but legally acquire the materials for, too. I was going to invest in N before I did more research and realized that it is difficult to acquire, given the huge number of scams. Eventually, I just settled on SN.
 
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Stan

Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
2,589
It's possible in time that someone will find a middle ground method between N and SN. It is likely to be a drug of some sort that is easily sourced in my opinion. Just that research by the Exit organisation or similar group has not got there yet. Some of those have already been suggested on this forum, but without any data to understand peacefulness and reliability it is a bit risky to suggest them as viable.
 
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AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
149
I can relate deeply to this, I was heavily relying on CO method with disposable bbq's, however SN seems more foolproof, I'm just a bit confused because I feel no worry about it, it's like I genuinely feel as though I'm ready for this & can continue my life like normal up until that point, which ironically should be about 2 weeks from now like yourself, pray everything goes smooth and well for you

Ah, I'm slightly envious, my worry comes in waves. Probably doesn't help that my anxiety is affects me almost as much as the depression, and I know at the time I will be panicking... I just keep reminding myself that panic is a normal emotion to feel at the time of ctb, and that I don't see any hope in the future if I decide not going ahead with it.

As you said, wishing peace and a safe journey when your time comes also.
 
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Neverod

Neverod

>:^3
Aug 8, 2019
150
If it's ok to ask, do you have a date planned?
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
1,496
when I first came to this forum I was sold on the charcoal method or the amitriptyline cocktail and was very skeptical of SN, I still am a bit about the peacefulness, but not as much as before.

if I fail to acquire N then I'll have SN as the alternative method since most people that attempted it on this forum never came back.
and i've always wanted to go by overdosing or poisoning myself, methods like hanging or jumping are just way too violent for me.
 
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6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
273
If it's ok to ask, do you have a date planned?
No specific date planned, before December ideally just depends on delivery of SN
 
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