SN in hand

[falloutcarter13]

I get back from court with a definite trial date (which is a very convenient - and necessary - ctb deadline), and sitting on my computer desk is the package containing SN. It arriving when it did feels like a sign from the universe that everything is *finally* coming together the way its supposed to. Right in front of me is a professionally packaged, 99.6% pure reagent grade, 113G bottle of SN. I keep picking it up and holding it for comfort. Finally, something went right for me. Doesn't even matter that it wasn't until the end that it finally happened. All that's left to do today is think about everything and pick the ctb date that feels right. I'm still considering, but six weeks from now feels about right.

As always, thanks for reading my shitposts and being such a kind and loving community. Its a comfort to have all of you in my last days.

 

[Disco Biscuit]

You've only been here a week and you already seem to have more friends and connections than I've made in my entire life. It won't be the same here without you. You'll be very missed.

Is it the impending trial date that's brought you here?

 

[falloutcarter13]

You've only been here a week and you already seem to have more friends and connections than I've made in my entire life. It won't be the same here without you. You'll be very missed.

Is it the impending trial date that's brought you here?

Well...its the impending trial date that's brought me here *now*. Before this mess happened, I wanted to die for years. But there was the false hope that things would get better, plus I was just too damn depressed to even look into reliable methods lol. This was the motivation I needed to put a clock on it and get busy.

Same back to you, I've been seeing your posts and thinking of you as one of the "good ones" on this site since I got here ;)

 

[bigdog]

You are lucky. Do you have some sleeping pills or only SN?

 

[falloutcarter13]

You are lucky. Do you have some sleeping pills or only SN?

Nah no prescription pills at all, the only thing I'll have is tagamet and possibly some zofran, even though it seems the zofran might not help with the nausea. I plan on taking multiple 25g/50mL doses, as many as necessary to get the job done

 

[Sinai Silence]

Best of luck with the SN dude. I hope the court session wasn't too stressful for you. You will be sorely missed by us all here when you do decide to go

 

[Disco Biscuit]

Well...its the impending trial date that's brought me here *now*. Before this mess happened, I wanted to die for years. But there was the false hope that things would get better, plus I was just too damn depressed to even look into reliable methods lol. This was the motivation I needed to put a clock on it and get busy.

Same back to you, I've been seeing your posts and thinking of you as one of the "good ones" on this site since I got here ;)

You're such a nice and kind person and it's so sad that you want to leave. I'm really happy that you've found comfort and relief in having a safe and reliable way out but it's sad that someone who is so kind and helpful and smart has to reach this place at all.

 

[Mm80]

Will be sad to see you go as all of your posts have been supportive and positive and friendly.

 

[Ulisses]

that you have a quiet ctb, that brings the peace you seek. hugs