SN attempt in January. Will do it properly next time

[Jadzia]

I drank wine, took benzos, took domperidone, took pain relief. I licked my finger and dabbed IC SN 6 o7 times. It was very salty but no burning watched mu oxygen levels fall to 90 and heart rate 140. I felt neither though. I had a mild headache. SI kicked in and i posted on fb. Ambulance called. Oxygen levels kept dropping and paramedics gave me oxygen in ambulance. Carried on in hospital.

My hands and lips were blue and I was freezing cold. Oxygen wasn't helping. I had to tell the doctor what the antidote was. He confirmed that on his PC. About 40 mins later oxygen levels OK once methyln blue given. Still very cold though.

I think I would have died without the intervention and wish I had. It would have been peaceful if I'd been left alone.



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[FuneralCry]

It sounds horrible to me failing a suicide attempt but anyway thank you for sharing your experience.

 

[Jadzia]

It sounds horrible to me failing a suicide attempt but anyway thank you for sharing your experience.

Thanks. It was inpulsive after drinking alcohol and sinking further into depression

 

[Obliviate]

So you're experience with SN was relatively peaceful? That's so good to hear especially after all these scary posts about SN that we don't know are true or not

 

[Jadzia]

So you're experience with SN was relatively peaceful? That's so good to hear especially after all these scary posts about SN that we don't know are true or not

It was peaceful and I'm really ill with severe ME. I thought it would make my ME symptoms worse but I felt less unwell than I normally do. When i was in the ambulance both the paramedics were trying to get enough oxygen in me and failing. I could see how concerned they were and I felt I don't care right now if I live or die. I felt peaceful. Being cold was the worst bit. I used to be concerned about taking SN because of the ME symptoms, but I'm not now. I've got loads of benzos, metocloramide, domperidone, and loads of unopened SN left.

I'll do it properly next time and I think it will be relatively peaceful. I'll take enough to become unconscious quickly

 

[ZeldaNLink1999]

So you called the ambulance because you had regret in your decision?

 

[Jadzia]

So you called the ambulance because you had regret in your decision?

I didn't call an ambulance. I posted on Facebook because SI kicked in. I wrote I've taken SN and I'm going to die. A friend rang 999 and told someone I live with

 

[losing hope]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Would you say the SN you ingested was about 4g's from those 6 or 7 dabs?

Also are you able to advise how many benzos & domperidone you took?

Thanks.

 

[Jadzia]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Would you say the SN you ingested was about 4g's from those 6 or 7 dabs?

Also are you able to advise how many benzos & domperidone you took?

Thanks.

I can't remember. I wasn't counting. They were quite big dabs but don't know how much in weight. The paramedics took the rest of that bag away otherwise i would have weighed the remains when i got home. Luckily I have 2 more bags with 50gms in each

 

[Caoine01]

Thank you for this description. It is reassuring to have gotten to know the first meters of the path through you.

I wish you the best of luck on all your further paths.

 

[Willthishelp?]

I didn't call an ambulance. I posted on Facebook because SI kicked in. I wrote I've taken SN and I'm going to die. A friend rang 999 and told someone I live with

How was the aftermath? Your recovery and rest damage?