SN arrived today, I have a strong urge to do it RIGHT NOW

[bungalooping]

SN just arrived today, I wanna do it now, I wanna drink it all up but I also know that I should be patient with it, there's still a lot of stuff for me to do.

First I gotta wait until my sister passes one very important exam in her life, literally the most important of her life I guess. So I wouldn't jeopardize her chances by dying just before.

Also I can't die here in France, I gotta go back to my home country in 2 weeks and then do it, I can't just CTB here and have my family pay thousands and go through a whole process to bring my dead body back.

Finally, back home, I'll have access to Metoclopramide, and I'll be more at ease and I will see my family for the last time before I CTB.

But these two weeks before I go back again will be so hard, I gotta do a project for school (WHICH I CANNOT FATHOM DOING AT ALL, but I'm in a group with 2 other girls and I can't let them down, if it was just me I wouldn't care), and I gotta decide how to transport the SN (Either in my checked luggage, or pay DHL or such to have it delivered in one of their agencies back home)

I just hope that the hype won't get to me and push me to swallow it all.

Thank you for everyone here on SS.

 

[wiggy]

Are you the guy who was worried about returning to France for your studies a few weeks back? I'm glad to see you're doing alright.

 

[Apokryphiel]

I hope you can find your peace after all is said and done.

 

[bungalooping]

Are you the guy who was worried about returning to France for your studies a few weeks back? I'm glad to see you're doing alright.

Yes I am, I decided to return and got SN eventually, I did not draw much attention from parents so that's all good, if I had stayed it wouldn't have worked