Venting Smell bad

[spinningship]

I can shower and apply deodorant and right after scrubbing myself furiously with soap people will still say I smell bad. Constantly overhear comments and it's been a permanent feature of my life since I was 5 years old. Nothing I do works and it's so depressing and defeating it's like groundhog day. It honestly just feels like god singled me out and hates me in particular so fucking much. I can't even assess whether a particular change works as my only feedback is yearly comments I happen to overhear affirming that my latest attempts have done nothing.

I've heard autistic people often have this problem which makes me think it's some gut thing and just completely unsolvable. Just another way autistic people are fucked over by life it's ridiculous it's like some demon invented this condition. I think even the greatest imagination couldn't have come up with something as fucked as this.

I always hear people on reddit saying to take a shower and it just makes me miserable like if you only knew how much effort it takes. It's just a reminder of how much neurotypical people just sail through playing on easy mode. I get some neurotypical people have trauma etcetra that can present similarly to autism but honestly it's so hard to empathize with neurotypical ppl just because if you gave me a neurotypical life I would be so fucking grateful.

Everything is easy for a neurotypical person it's so stupid they never have to work for anything in their lives. When they say hard work they mean like 10% of what I would consider bare minimum to survive.

I have a theory in my head I like which is that autistic people are the only conscious ones and that this is actually hell we are living in, and neurotypicals are the ones tempting us with forbidden fruit like adam and eve. I think it's a rebellion against NTs often calling us not conscious just because we don't process information as quickly as them.

Luckily I no longer have to speak to neurotypical people as my family is ND and all my friends are.

 

[PreCambrianBliss]

Could it be your clothes or home? Depending on living conditions your house might smell without you realizing it. If nothing else, see a doctor. Maybe you have some sort of condition like hyperhidrosis

"Everything is easy for a neurotypical person... they never have to work for anything in their lives" This is absolutely not true. I don't know what its like to be divergent but you don't know what it's like to be typical. Problems don't go away, they only change form.

 

[spinningship]

Could it be your clothes or home? Depending on living conditions your house might smell without you realizing it. If nothing else, see a doctor. Maybe you have some sort of condition like hyperhidrosis

"Everything is easy for a neurotypical person... they never have to work for anything in their lives" This is absolutely not true. I don't know what its like to be divergent but you don't know what it's like to be typical. Problems don't go away, they only change form.

You're right you don't know what it's like to be divergent.

 

[KrowaKovsky]

I get you, it's fucking rough.

Me and the people I live with are all neurodivergent, sometimes you just don't have the energy to really take care of yourself. What I do because I get extremely greasy, and hate feeling that way, I will sometimes wash my hair with dish soap to keep me feeling less gross for a little longer.

 

[Zegers]

My mom smokes and my clothes used to smell like an ashtray, in HS i also went through this. This life sucks.

 

[uniqueusername39]

i understand your resentment of NT people. what's easy for them is hard for you, what's hard for them is even harder for you.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Pick a trading card game (Like Magic or Yugioh) an you;lll feel right at home

 

[kitch]

I read "the awakened ape" (Jevan Pradas) a few years ago.

There is a controversial chapter about shampoo and soap.

I've been down voted on other boards for suggesting this.

I haven't used soap for years.

It might be complete bullshit ... I really do not know.

p.105

I live alone ... so I have no way of knowing.
I also smoke tobacco compulsively ... so I maybe reek of that more than anything.

 

[gardenofaphrodite]

My partner struggles with this. All his employers have pulled him into HR about it, his friends, previous relationships. For him, it's due to a thyroid issue. He showers regularly, using deodorant & sprays, he's tried everything, but he always has a distinct smell that just never goes away. I can't give you any solutions but I would recommend speaking to a doctor to see if maybe you have something medically causing it.

 

[Aisley]

There are prescription deoderants, and this curious new thing called the body mint that I'm pretty interested in. You could also check your ph levels. Kits for measuring are sold in drug stores. In case you haven't tried any of these.

 

[Chinchilla]

I'm not sure if it's been recommended but I think chlorhexidine would help. Just use it consistently and better yet, especially in the beginning, leave it on for around 15 minutes before showering. If you use it consistently you stop even needing deodorant. (you will still sweat but it smells like water.)

 

[whatevs]

It's an armpit issue? I solved mine after years of torment with a french deodorant called RESPIRE. Highly recommended. Being pestilent cripples you intensely, work, friends, sex. So try the deodorant. Btw, funny how I'm also autistic.

Deodorant - RESPIRE

www.cosmebio.org

 

[BE2010]

I've noticed this same issue but only at times. I only bathe every few days but I can't imagine how much worse life would feel if I had to interact with people more. I'm sorry this happens to you. When I notice it with myself I use body spritz and even have incense. I'm lucky that I can hide away alone and I suggest that for that times that you can. For being in public, try strong musk perfumes which will irritate people maybe but they are a better alternative maybe to comments or the feelings of self-consciousness around people. Good luck.